Today’s Oracle takes us to the Aries monthly for April 1, 2006
By now, the contractions of your cosmic rebirth are undeniable, and have very likely arrived with a sense of vulnerability and the overwhelming experience of an unfamiliar world. Of this you can be sure — the beginning has arrived. Remember that after birth one is a child, and developing into a recognizable form always takes time. Bear in mind, as well, that this is not an entirely new incarnation. What you are bringing with you is the essence of your dreams, and the seed of your desire to actualize them. The first step is often the most challenging, and this you have taken. What also comes along are certain key individuals who in a sense are the keepers of your highest visions. These are the people who can see you in a way that nobody else can; who indeed can see you a bit beyond your capacity to see yourself.
Note, The Oracle is a random selection from the Eric Francis horoscope archives. Each day we publish one entry from among the 10,000 in our database. It’s a little slice of horoscope history — but chosen by our Oracle program, which always speaks to the present moment. New horoscopes are published each Friday plus twice a month in Planet Waves subscriber edition and Planet Waves Light.
Seeds
It is with no regret and with no turning around,
That I embrace this moment full with delicious fruit,
The sweetened taste of a memory that I leave just as I found,
Perfect in it poise and undisturbed in its suit,
As if the garden itself was the home of my seeds,
Bursting forth a life transforming and pivotal,
With voices guiding a path to where my future leads,
And all that I dream and all of my heart is but a little,
Of the dedication I received from a kind sky that heard all of my quiet needs.
Daniel
Thanks for the giggle Lizzy! (Clip and brother reference. I think I may have met him … Is he about this tall with two eyes and hair? 😉 ) And the sound in the other link from you was haunting. Magical and otherworldly. And of course, mlle. stormilarue, some awesome tunes were provided by vous. PJ Harvey = you speaking my langue! Thanks for sharing more of your thoughts. Thanks to you, Daniel, for broaching the subject and sharing deeply. My best to you all! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48zJ091D518 (And, yeah, I may have [re-re-re-re]watched Stranger than Fiction recently.)
What an awesome thread! Thank you Sarah and Lizzy for sharing/joining. And all of you for the youtube love! 🙂 You’re all such amazing women.
Stormi, yeah, it might be that as you were healing beneath the leg shell/cast, you took in a lot of fear/impressions. Often trauma gets locked in a particular area and can cause energetic issues in the nadis, meridians, and emotional body. Your leg is fine but if you start there, you just might crack a “shell” that still exists.
Lizzy, that is the mantra for the 11 faced 1000 armed Chenrezig. She has such a beautiful voice.
thank you Lizzy, and Sarah, all the same to you two and the http://youtu.be/tEddixS-UoU in all of us! cheers!
Wonderful choice of song, Stormi! Lots of luck and love with it all.
hadn’t thought about the leg healing Daniel, thanks, will look into it. i don’t think i purposely chose the strays/broken wings, nor a particular type (tho i know i have a thing for musicians so unless they’re by default broken/strays…) also had never thought that the strays and broken wings i attracted were mine to fix, always thought it was more of a ‘i’m walking with you’ along the way kind of role because i knew i was also working on my own “brokenness”. and i know i’ve been verbal about that with them too. that’s what ended my last relationship, i couldn’t be with someone who wasn’t willing to work with healing his own issues. i realize he wasn’t able to at the time, and i wasn’t able to hold dead space anymore. it was/is about me loving myself properly first and foremost, which can feel like a clusterfuck as one simultaneously works on decolonizing their mind from socialization while the hypercolonizing continues on a daily basis. it’s not easy work, and i’ve “lost” a lot of people in my life who aren’t willing/able to be so reflective of the process, even being told how ridiculous i was for doing so. i have learned that most everyone i know has some kind of father issues, and i personally think it’s wrapped up in the patriarchal (un)consciousness that sets the patterns we’re all exposed to, which again, is why i decided to only choose relationships with people who are aware and working with(in) that awareness. but i may be in a no man’s land in finding those where i’m at, or they’re all in hiding doing their own thing like me. i may have shared with you before about the idea of wholeness within to find wholeness outside, or what i understand as a sense of true union, where two whole beings can find a greater whole without becoming just parts. or something like that – basically i don’t want to fix anyone, and i don’t want to be fixed because it isn’t me that is broken. “getting through” is a work in progress eh, but what has helped me over the last few years is being able to talk with those who really are in the thick of it, even if we repeat the same conversation over and over and over. baby steps and deep breaths has been my mantra of the millennium as reprogramming isn’t easy, nor exactly popular work. but eventually … http://youtu.be/ner3eq4poYA
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Something exquisite I just discovered in my Sunday browsings, the singng nun of Kathmandu, who has transformed her suffering in song, love to all:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVueLvn0WYE
Hey Sarah – sounds like you’ve met my brother – the moody, dark, artist type, who always goes for strong, positive, gifted women and gives them a hell of a time! (my god, maybe yuo have…).
” This deep guilt for saying how I felt, for saying what I wanted and that I needed more from her” Daniel, you did great – the guilt is the sense of not being the ‘good boy’ any more (which I know well as I have a ‘good girl’ complex), it feels deeply uncomfortable, but open up to that feeling and let it be, so that it can eventually dissolve. I’m wary of relationships too, and getting involved with another broken man. But I think that the more one is able to heal ones own wounds and grow from them, the less likely one is to attract another wounded, needy person – it’s an energetic, vibrational thing. And Daniel, you’ve got enough great youtube clips from us gals! Found ths hilarious sketch through Sarah’s great link (wonderful comedy duo, Saunders and French), need a laugh right now – hellish dark moon phase I’m wadng through:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PD0rbiePhBc
Thank you Daniel and stormilarue for sharing so freely. I, like stormilarue, have had a similar situation with men (i.e., I seem to attract some strays with broken wings). I love a moody, artsy, brooding, dark man. Someone who never really seems content with life, or, unfortunately, with me. (And, just for the record, I am pretty freakin’ great!) For me, it really seems to have little to do with my upbringing. I love my dad. He is pretty uncomplicated though. Not the moody/artsy/dark type of guy that I seem to be drawn to. He does have some high-ish levels of anxiety that only I seem to recognize, and usually the men that I tend to gravitate towards have some sort of hidden, or open, anxiety about life in general. Hey, I like artists, what can I say? Moody, dark, anxiety ridden effers. On a more serious note, I haven’t had to go through any kind of situation like either of you had to, and all I can say is, well done for surviving, thriving, and thinking it through. You are both very strong people. I think most people want to “fix” the person they are with or are interested in being with, in order to “help” them or in order to make them more of the person you *think* you want to be with. Relationships, romantic or otherwise, on the whole, are very confusing. It seems like everyone wants to do the best they can by themselves and by others. But sometimes that’s harder than it should be. Daniel, you really do seem to have a good handle on this. It’s just the process that kinda sucks. I hope, at least, that you enjoyed your ice cream! 😉 And stormilarue, I hope that road smooths out a bit for you! And WTF, here’s a Yootoobe clips for both of ya: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJVOC0ozb6g
I’m sorry if I’m stating the obvious. I’m not a therapist by any stretch. Just like me, you wanting to fix the strays and broken wings is like wanting to fix the person so that he can love you properly. You needing some fatherly love, not getting it, and so switching the game so that you can try and fix the “man” first. We set a pattern like this by learning to sacrifice our need for love by giving love so that we can then hope to receive it. But really, it works against us because we’re not really fixing anything.
For me, my mom was not really able to be present and be a completely loving mom. She did her best. But I knew she was unhappy. So I tried to “fix” her situation so that she could love me better, or that I could receive the security I was missing. Another paradigm for sacrificing my own needs to make someone else happy.
Man, what a mind fuck. How does one get through this??? AHHHHHH! This is why these last months have been so crazy on me. This deep guilt for saying how I felt, for saying what I wanted and that I needed more from her. Like I was abandoning her. You know she never sent me an email with a youtube music clip!?! WTF! I love youtube music email attachments…. 🙁
I need ice cream now…… like a tub of it.
Stormi, you’re amazing. I appreciate your story very much. I was wondering if you ever did any energy or healing work on that leg, going back to that time? Like Reiki for instance, or your own meditations and healing. If not, maybe give it some thought.
Hugs!
my grandmama once told me to stop taking in strays, and she didn’t mean my cats. another friend helped me realize i was always taking in broken wings, and she didn’t mean birds. i was five when my mom married my first step-father, who abused her in front of me once by kicking her down a spiral staircase while i was stuck on the couch below with a leg cast on. guess my issues turned out different in a way, where i have put up such a shield around myself and what kind of relationship i want (especially after the last few years of intense learning/releasing) that i wonder if i even want to share space with another again. not that i don’t want someone close that i connect with, but i think i’m more concerned about not falling into those similar patterns of emotional drain/abuse or the loss of identity from co-dependence just for the sake of ‘relating’. in that sense i stay “safe” though i’m sure i’m missing something as well. awareness is the first step, and i think action is the second, which i know is about creating new patterns but ya, rough roads to the next one …
http://youtu.be/c0Ohk5c5b40
What a beautiful Oracle.
This week, I’ve been thinking a lot on how I get into certain patterns in relationships. I’m feeling really weird as I process some personal stuff and as I work through this material, I also have no idea how to fix it, or if I’m even “broken”. Part of the intensity of attraction has roots in a need to be a grounding influence. I’m not really attracted to emotionally desperate women, but there is probably something subtle I pick up on where I genuinely feel like I want to help, either by being protective or nourishing. I’ll jump up and down saying its not my role, but yet its a sincere way I connect and offer my affection. I don’t take over, rather intend to aid in some sense of stability. I’m not emotionally cold; I reach out, and this is how I do it over time.
The roots are in how I watched my mom get beaten up by my dad when I was six, her surviving an abusive relationship, and me wanting her to be happy and safe. Probably 8 times out of 10, even the physical attributes of what I feel naturally attracted to in a woman is what my mom looked like when she was 30. I’m not going to beat myself up about this and I’m not really sure there’s anything I can do about it either. I don’t have an unhealthy relationship with my mom and never did. There were some growing pains in my 20’s sure, and I know there’s anger and frustration there. I’m not sure it’s linked except that I didn’t really have a lot of space.
So, now I’m in a head trip about not wanting to feed a pattern that’s really about my inner little boy wanting my mom safe and me wanting a healthy relationship. And trust me, I know the difference. These past few months have really opened up this discussion inside my head, esp lately, as I put my desires and needs out there for empowerment and recognition. What else can I do? I’m not interested in suffocating my desires just to make someone else safe and secure. And yet it’s important to me that that aspect of how I connect with a gal is valued.
A friend said, all you can do is just have awareness. But I’m wondering if there’s something else I’m missing? Are there any women with similar dad issues? Are there any guys that have this a similar history to mine? I’ve worked many years on sorting out my boundaries, complexes, and assertiveness. Perhaps it’s a longer journey I’m on…
Thanks…