Dear Friend and Reader:
The young Aries Moon is making sextiles for the next two days to all the planets in Aquarius. We have here a beautiful image of an individual existing in harmony with social forces and not sacrificing his or her own sense of self, but rather integrating it into something larger. This would be us. We are usually broadsided by group energy, or slip into lockstep marching in one direction or another. I don’t think we need to live this way: it’s not as scary as you think to assert yourself against some kind of collective consciousness (be it three friends or at a company meeting), mainly because of the wispy nature of the ego. It seems so strong and powerful; but when we drop down a level or two into core self, we find something a lot stronger and more meaningful.
Today the Moon makes a conjunction to Venus, slow and powerful in the last days before its six-week retrograde (March 6 through April 17). This is going to be interesting, on two levels. I’ve spent more time pondering the personal aspects of this transit, which fits some of my core thories about personality, sexuality and our culture of narcissism. My sense about this transit is that we have here an opportunity to resolve the many misgivings we feel about ourselves. Often these come in the form of an exaggerated sense of self-worth or self-confidence; which conceals a deeper level of mistrust or other shadow material (which can be dark, ranging from self-hatred to embarrassment). Or, the process can be reversed and we feel a sense of loss and lack that we know covers over the confidence we should feel.
Venus retrograde will shift our awareness of this process, individually and in some respects culturally. The cultural side is an emphasis on using our resources (Venus) for what is important to us. Generally this takes a lifetime to discover, but there are focal points along the way — and we are moving into one of them now. This is sensitive territory. How we really feel about ourselves is not something we can generally speak about easily. When the aspect of ourselves in question is where erotic awareness and self-esteem meet (as is likely with Venus in Aries), the truth is sometimes never spoken, and rarely known.
Today Mercury is conjunct Nessus in Aquarius. Nessus represents, or arrives nearby, some of the darkest attributes of our sexual reality: deception, revenge, rape, the fear of diseases (and their reality); everything we connect with genital anxiety. Nessus is associated with potentially inappropriate sexual contacts, of which we have defined many many many in our society; we hardly have a definition of what sexual contact is appropriate, except for compulsory heterosexual marriage.
On a deeper level, Nessus is about the intermingling of karma between people sometimes removed by several layers of contact. These stories go in cycles of cause and effect, and can come back like a boomerang. Nessus is one of those planets that usually exists on an “unconscious” level, but which typically percolates up to awareness as fear or paranoia. These feelings are associated with past events, which are mingled with all kinds of negative expectations. There is really only one way out of this, which is awarenes — and that Mercury bestows. The way to use Nessus positively and consciously is to take it on the level of awareness that actions have consequences, whether good or bad, intended or unintended; when we act, we set off a chain of cause and effect — and we may be part of an effect before we are part of a cause.
Speaking of all this deep stuff, I will be reporting in this weekend from Poly Living 2009 in Philadelphia. If you happen to be in Phillie and would like to meet up, drop me an email at info – at – planetwaves.net, or call Chelsea for my cell phone. You can reach her at (877) 453-8265.
Onamove,
Mystes: I hear ya. It’s a weird space to come to know it’s all indestructible, so many layers to that truth, eh? I feel, see those layers as fear of one sort or another to clear on one side or both. So, I was speaking for me, from my perspective, my experience base; being a bridge across chasm shakes the structure in all kinds of weather for sure and that’s been my ride across 5 soul individuations, lesser consorts…
Honestly though, to use the word duress does imply to me a fear, now that I think about it more, so I was writing from that intuitive space; otherwise the word adventure, battle, or unknown might be used, don’t you think? Just a discussion re: language, not a knowing better or anything else, ok? So much is negative, judgmental when fear abounds, especially when precious “reputation” is involved, and by that I mean ‘self-esteem’ not just public persona and wanting projection of special image.
Thanks for the wishes, the clouds seem to have rolled in, but temps are still high in 50-60 so should be good today.
Maybe I/we/p’ers can organize an astrological round table for meetup here in lovely, art centric sf? Let’s brainstorm format, ideas?!
Love and hugs to you on the rainbow path sister!
kristenb… thanks for the love and voice. I want to be clear that this shift with the primary consort has nothing to do with the usual reasons for disjunction. We’re neither ‘too much’ nor afraid of each other; we have always *seen* one another with acceptance and lucidity. He is presently under terrible duress, and I have done everything in my powers –with his encouragement and welcome– to relieve it.
This last year has been my response to his lament: “You didn’t fight hard enough for me!” He’s right, I didn’t in my 20s or 30s or 40s. I felt, correctly, it seems, that we were indestructible. What the draconics showed me is that I can stop worrying on one level, and get back to work on another. It’s like being permanently pregnant with your future incarnation. This is the feeling that has presided over all of our years of love and collaboration, and you’re right, it has been a rare privilege to actually touch, think with, delight in, and hold present *outside* that which we carried within. We are both aware of what an odd and powerful opportunity this has been, and worked with it as consciously as possible.
Now there’s something to do something (still puzzling it out) with this starmap in my bones. For tonight I am just letting it carry me. . .
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Good luck on your move, neighbor… and enjoy that kiva for me! And if that’s an invitation, then yes! I will try to make a visit sometime this summer. It would be a privilege to meet you.
oh, and as you point out, this is the resolution of the paradox, all, and one, thus no jealousy, only recognition of intimacy…
Mystes: wrt 12 houses, most people only read their sun or rising sign, but one day several years ago now, i read all the signs from aries to pisces and i could feel each sign resonating inside in different aspects… intuitive hits… path is to balance and integrate all energies with our signatures specific to what we must work with/on balancing… or so i believe at this juncture 🙂
yea, the draconic or dragon’s head/tail alignments are phenomenal whether studies in tropical mode and their placements and angles and phases or draconic…
and, yea, mine also aligns with fated signatures wherein i ‘feel’, ‘know’ and occassionally see through the veil to one whom i searched for for 38/39 yrs mundane in this life… but otherside has to want to see back, deal back – to know and let go is hard no matter – so *hugs* to you.
we can let go ‘cuz we know we are deeply connected with/without astro signatures, but we still have to go through act of actually doing so; releasing the final fear(s) and that is very hard indeed… for me, the astro signature i totally guessed, nearly correct to a few minutes and sealed all the other lucid dreams and photos and stuff i had experienced for many years… you are lucky to actually be interacting with your consort…
those with whom i am fated at some point tell me i freak them out, scare them as if i read their mind… i don’t, but i do act upon information, but from blank book aspect… anyhow, scaring people over time that has made me reticent and paranoid and skeptical and now i see kept me from my path, so time to see IT and keep truckin’ to quote the DEAD.
Yeah, I stepped outside, that is a nice kiss! Moving tomorrow… new landlord even refurbed the kiva fireplace for me… maybe we can have a meet up/seminar in sf sometime?!
an old childhood neighbor resurfaced on facebook (which i don’t use much, but …) who is now a pilot for jetblue and when i mentioned shiny sky objects, he came back with having best seat in house for venus 🙂 he mentioned his life irony of flying nato missions for years, now flying lovers to see each other across country under venus skies… some military folk are grounded, so to speak.
thank you so much, Kristen…
I am pondering these charts now, the ground has literally shifted under my feet today — the draconic places chiron/pholus/moon in taurus 2nd house. I am also looking at my consort’s. Our charts are inverted: his draconic is the image of my tropical; my draconic looks like his tropical. No wonder we actually SEE one another. We each bear the starmap of the other’s wholeness.
This is *way* beyond 8th house stuff. And now I can let go. He knows he *has* me – or the existential pattern of me – deep, too deep to lose.
(is that a Venus/Moon kiss going on outside?)
stunned, clear, free. . .
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… “Do you ever read all the signs and go, uh, huh to each 12 houses?” …
Not sure what you mean… explain?
Mystes: Sorry, to answer the question, it’s subtracting the degree distance from the Aries point to the North Lunar Node. The Draconic position is the spiritual need, the tropical the Mundane expression.
For example, my North Lunar Node is at 26 Taurus, so I subtract 56 degrees from everything in my chart making my Draconic Sun land at 19 Pisces. My tropical Venus sits on the Aries point, thus my Draconic North Lunar Node is conjunct my Venus. Interp is something like, my forward motion, destiny is via Venusian energies. My Draconic Sun is loosely conjunct my tropical Piscean Chiron, so my spirit is urging me on via healing, healing in the ocean of oneness. *sigh*
My Draconic chart aligns as well or better with all things that have come to me via etheric awareness grounded into 3D manifestation, awareness. *double sigh*
But, great question… good to focus more on soul/spirit. Do you ever read all the signs and go, uh, huh to each 12 houses?
Mystes: Only that represents more of your soul path, and that you want to focus upon those elements that aspect the other chart, or another way to say it is, do a synastry between your tropical natal chart and your draconic natal chart. If your draconic sun conjuncts your tropical saturn, then your soul path involves the issues surrounding those two ideas. If aware, then the elements are things you need to express and if unaware, then shadow material that keeps getting flung at you by those closest.
Embracing self, i realize i must embrace my process. Therein I embrace life.
potentials with an “s” is good. Now to allow with self permission.
Does anyone have anything on Draconic charts? How they work exactly? I am looking at two that I cast at astrodienst, and they are blowing me away. I just don’t quite understand how they are formed. . . something about being progressed off of the Aries point.
And…
. . . Astrological charts are mandalas. They can be used as such, especially *for* someone else. Not as a tool for control, but a reflection to activate potentials. A friend is looking over mine right now (and I, his), and there’s energy popping loose everywhere, the result of simple, lucid attention.