Today, Eric checks out transparency, the step from personal healing to global healing, and our current potent moment of transformation between eclipses. To check out the full subscriber issue, which includes Eric’s essential horoscopes for all 12 signs, please use this link. If you’d like to receive our twice-weekly mailings (plus be eligible for a discount on the forthcoming 2012 annual edition), use this link to subscribe for three months.
susyc — i’ve had the natural peak of ovulation added to this hot astrology that has been aspecting my natal chart all over the place. holy cow the last 2+ weeks have been fun solo play….
“Someone wrote to me and said it seemed like every person in New York City was horny. Now that would be an adventure.”
Well, I have certainly been more massively horny than I have in a long while, and I think it started last Thursday when I began to notice a tendency to hear practically 85% of everything said as sexual innuendo. I even had to ask my best girlfriend if she was hearing in the same way or “was it just me.” I started to think I was having some sort of weird psychotic sexual break, but then figured that if I was, I wouldn’t be asking that question.
However, it was apparently apparent or ‘transparent’ towards many members of the opposite sex and perhaps some of the same sex as well. Just a slight flirt produced a free baklava on Thursday from Zorba ‘the culinary Greek,’ and then later, a kiss on the side of my head and a comment that I “was sweet” from a gentleman author and lecturer from out of town. It even carried over to Sunday when I heard a restaurant manager tell me that he was ‘in season,’ when actually he may have been talking about a menu item…I am definitely feeling a bit in season myself, obviously, if I haven’t made that clear enough already.
Naturally, this all went to my head a little bit, but it was just as much fun to enjoy it and let it go as quickly as it happened.
Despite all this massive sexuality on the rampage this weekend, it was hard to hook up with my one and only. Maybe it was a little scary for him to have me checking out the ‘rules’ of our relationship, asking if they still included sexual monogamy–a boundary that even with him, although he would not admit it, has been a little more permeable in the not so distant past at least in his own mind. Some people think these rules are forever, but I do think as you grow and change, the rules have to grow and change with you and that as you get older and insecurities are less compelling, changing the rules may just be the ticket.
Having listened to his PW Leo birthday scope, I was inspired to eventually say that I did just want to be friends with whoever I wanted to be friends with and that I was sorry that in the past, I had interfered with his ability to do the same. He responded by saying that of course I should be friends with whoever I wanted, making it clear though, that overt sexual expression should not be part of that equation. I wonder if he is saving me from myself because I must admit that while the fantasy of sexual expression outside of our current agreement is certainly agreeable, the actuality itself would be disorienting, if not to say, honestly terrifying.
The difficulties connecting continued until Sunday night. You may ask why I didn’t decide to masturbate, and the answer to that was that I wanted him more instead and was willing to wait. And so far, I want him more instead than adventures outside the ‘rules.’ I think I read a line in some of Maria Padilla’s recent writing that says that even in poly relationships, the participants only go as fast as the slowest one in the group. And I am not willing to do anything underhanded or behind the scenes. On the other hand I do like operating by the philosophy that “It doesn’t matter where you get your appetite as long as you eat at home.”
So I don’t know what will happen in the future. But I do know that I am not going there without my beloved on board and happy. And as for our eventual connection, well, it was absolutely worth the wait.
marymack: We are all in this together and none of us are alone. You are safe among people who understand that we are one-with here at Planet Waves.
I was feeling terribly unheard by people I trust to listen and give genuine and honest feedback, and before I knew it I was in hurt mode and spiraling into deeper funk. I am edified by the posts here, “anybody there?” and send my best love and gratitude to Len for shining a light on Mercury’s impact.
Bless ya’ll … I bow to you all for helping keep me in touch with the light within and they sky above. I always look for ways to spread this love as I move about the day … thank you, everyone!
mary
Eric: Thank you. Had to read it twice over two days to even approach your sublime perception. What little there is inside my thick skull truly appreciates how well you find a way to get through.
..and not only is the USWest Coast the later-in-the-day PWers, but lots of people here still have power outages and or power problems from the wind-storms. And then too, as you say, it was Friday night 🙂 I’ve been having intermittent internet probs myself.
Wind – that’s a Merc thing too? 🙂
“The approaching eclipse might feel like a bubble growing inside you that refuses to burst, every minute leaving you wondering when it will.”
“These things happen; there are moments when learning something actually changes you. It’s deeper than ‘insight’, which can feel more like popcorn.”
Before a popcorn kernel is introduce to heat it is relatively flat. [At least home grown and/or organic corn is.] As it is nakedly “played” across the hot metal bottom of a pot, it plumps, it rounds, it matures. To keep it from burning, the wrist follows a rhythmic swirling motion. Still individual kernels, they somehow begin to interact forming group patterns. A sound emerges. This is the best part.
[My grandmother taught me to listen to things in the world.]
At first, the sound is dull. Scratchy even. Back and forth. Swirl. [Patience.] More back and forth. More swirl. A toasty aroma rises. The once dormant tiny kernel that sat frozen, suspended, waiting, protected in its Ball Jar Freezer World, is now coming to life. It swells. Feeling the fire from under, it becomes alive. The sound changes.
It starts to sing. I do not know the words, but the sound is round. Round just like the kernel. Depending upon the level of heat, it is just after that sound change that the first corn pops. Usually this one is small, but bigger ones soon follow. Pour on the organic butter and sea salt.
Grammy taught me in order to listen, I had to learn to be willing to sit still long enough to hear.
Thanks aword! I was testing & didn’t even think the ‘comment’ would go through. . figured it was a Mercury rx or Merc-Mars square malfunction. When it did I remembered it was Friday night and maybe folks were taking a break away from their computers. Didn’t know that happened at PW!
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Hi Be, as for me, just been mostly off-line. Thanks for your Goddess yod info on the other thread, BTW, I had read that but not the article yet so refrained from comment. Thx!
Hey . .just checking. No new responses in over 5 hours. Is everybody there okay? Is it just a Mercury rx thing?
The link below has nothing to do with astrology, but it connects to a very good, and I feel important, read about our government. The title of the article is “When Governments Go Rogue” by Brandon Smith.
I am not sure how you feel about publishing comments with links, so if this is something you do not want to add to the comment section, I will understand. But as a very long time Planet Waves reader, I felt that it would be of interest to Eric and the Planet Waves staff.
This quote from the article that particularly resonated with me: “What makes one man a “king” and another man a “peasant”? Only the people of a country, and where they choose to place their personal control; in their own hands, or the hands of others. To put it simply, there is no power over us but that which we give away, and no freedom lost, that cannot be regained.”
http://www.zerohedge.com/news/guest-post-when-governments-go-rogue
P.S. Thanks for all of the wonderful work that y’all do!
Eric and Everyone,
This edition has to be one of the best you have ever crafted…. truly you have risen to the moment yourselves by putting this article together. This article coupled with the photograph Amanda posted bring this whole moment to a most profound sensation of walking on Holy ground and into a New World…
A deep and grateful bow to you all….great, great work!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart
Speaking of jaw-dropping — my son cleaned his room. Made his bed and cleaned his room.
ok then. maybe all of NYC WILL get horney all at once…..