In the lead-up to the ‘Aries Point’ Aries Full Moon, with its cardinal grand cross making everything political personal and vice versa, there is also a grand fixed cross early today. With Venus and Mars the main players, you could say, sometimes the personal really is personal.
Squares are felt as internal tension and ask us to take action to resolve it; Mars and Venus are the male and female archetypes at play when sex and love are on the agenda. Right now the deep, steamy, instinctual, stubborn Mars in Scorpio is pushing up against the dramatic-yet-warm-hearted Venus in Leo, with her finger on the desire on/off switch.
In other words, this could go a couple of ways. If there is unexpressed sexuality and desire in a relationship, or the sense that giving is not being reciprocated, the energy could come out as argumentative. Where there’s already healthy expression in a relationship, there’s likely to be more harmony as desires and needs are stated, individuality asserted, and reciprocation offered. Are there significant hidden tensions in your intimate relationships? They want out now.
A square between Venus and Mars also heightens interest in physical sex. It calls on us to be explicit; don’t leave desire unsaid — yet be aware and judicious. The potential for sexual appetite to become indiscriminate is exacerbated by Nessus, which is in Aquarius exactly opposite Venus and square Mars. Nessus could darken any ‘unconscious’ or careless sex into the realm of inappropriate, karmic or related to undesired family patterns.
On the other hand, Nessus offers its quality of “the buck stops here,” too. Your awareness is what makes the difference. Incidentally, Nessus in Aquarius in this configuration is illustrated by a current New York Times article about a woman who has made it her mission to offer discussions about, and videos of, real sex by real people as an alternative to the ubiquitous and very unreal ‘education’ younger people are getting from porn. She’s making the personal political, but with all the Aries Point activity lately, there’s no escaping that. Thankfully.
Finally, squaring up the grand cross, Sedna in Taurus points to the need to ground sex in the body’s senses (Taurus), yet also in what feels good to the psyche. In the push/pull, assert/receive, sex/love interplay of Mars & Venus, Sedna says, “remember to allow yourself access the parts of you — and others — that are vulnerable, that have been cut off, frozen or lost to the depths” (to paraphrase Melanie Rinehart).
In order to keep any Nessus-like blind spots or shadow material in view and allow the square’s tension to be truly transformative, not just exacerbating, we have to remember to dive in with Sedna and allow the Venus-Mars conversation to deepen. Or perhaps what’s in the depths can come to the surface and take its rightful place. Using the energies of a grand cross can be balancing if you act constructively, and in fixed signs it asks for emotional expression. Make it personal.
Yup to Merc retro stuff, our public school wide computer documentation program/format for therapists lost dates, ICD-9 codes, and therapy service time on treatment sessions AND the weekly/monthly service time and frequency from the IEP. All had to be re-entered. Luckily for me, I’m new and hadn’t got that far anyhow. But frustrating for everyone.
Yes, love and healing thoughts for your dear son, Carrie.
“btw: anyone else feel like there have been all sorts of Mercury Rx-type snafus in the last 2-3 days?” Yes, Amanda! Though I managed to sort it out fairly quickly….
Merc Rx stuff here, Amanda, although it was worse a few weeks ago.
I’m feeling the pressure, but it seems to be more productive. Shot full of energy though, and it feels right to burn some of that off at gym and getting things done at home. This is demon-confronting territory for me too, and the point of friction has proven to be where most of the work has been happening.
Some of my dearest friends are not faring so well and I hope it eases for them over the next few days – and I am sorry to hear about your week, carecare, and your son’s state of shock. I am sending him healing thoughts.
wow — good to know what people are experiencing as this full moon approaches, and i wish everyone the sense of ease that will surely come, hopefully sooner rather than later.
i think if i felt anything like “dread,” it was more last week, regarding some relationship stuff.
strangely (or maybe not? this full moon aspects my angles & some big planets), this week i’ve felt pretty good — energized, better focus with work, feeling momentum in positive ways. that may be b/c there are some fun things i’m looking forward to this weekend and next week; we’ll see what unfolds!
btw: anyone else feel like there have been all sorts of Mercury Rx-type snafus in the last 2-3 days? i thought i had at least another 2 weeks before that stuff started up with the shadow phase, let alone the actual retrograde!
Again. Find and use your Rescue Remedy (Bach flower remedy for anxiety). I blew into liminali’s the other day, loaded with teenager-angst (kid had a ‘heart event’ resulting in a trip the ER after sneaking out of town for a 2-day rave… in a heavy narcotraficante part of the state) – and she handed me a piece of RR in chewing gum form! It was *just* enough intervention to keep me from doing anything really stupid.
Find your equivalent … esp. today and tomorrow. Might be a mantra, might be a remedy or an herb (no, I don’t recommend stupifying yourself). But now we’re in the home stretch. Chill.
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This week has NOT been a good one.
Tuesday, my daughter smarted off to me in a disrespectful way and after four years of being patient with her similar outbursts I finally blew up in the car at her. It was very uncharacteristic of me and it scared her badly. Later that night we talked and cried it out but it was not a good day for either of us. I also began having digestive issues; stomach feeling icky and other things related.
Wednesday, my son and I were driving back from a very pleasant field trip when we were rear-ended very violently and suddenly. We are not seriously hurt but my son is now having all the signs of post traumtic stress; crying, fearful, panic attacks when we drove again in a different vehicle, feeling nauseated in that different vehicle. His heart is having far more pain and suffering than his physical body. I spent the day yesterday just being with him, playing board games on the back porch and letting him cry while I held him and calmed him. A counselor is scheduled to come Monday morning to our home to start the help he needs. The car was supposed to be the one my daughters could drive to scool (making it easier for me to homeschool my son without interrupting it to drive them back and forth) but now it must be repaired first. I got the same lawyer my brothers and I used 28 years ago to handle the accident.
I am still having digestive issues; eating makes me feel sick.
My husband has to drive 2 hours one way to a teack and field meet (again; he had to do it last Saturday and as a teacher he gets no pay for these extra hours) and then next Sunday he is required to drive to Tucson for a training (again taking him away from his family and no extra pay for it). :::sigh:::
I just want this week to finish and hopefully move on to something better.
Yes – have been feeling the most awful dread for days now. Has released somewhat since plucking up the courage to check my bank account (I always have the smelling salts ready, just in case) – which is pretty dire, but could be worse – am hanging on by those nails. Hope all you guys are beginning to feel more chilled too.
Re: patty and amanda. definitely feeling the dread…maybe about six days running?
here’s to moving through it and taking DEEP breaths….
Haha, end of the month blues, lots of paperwork looming that I’ll probably be late with given that I’d rather give my kids facetime than papertime, whatever the powers that be priorities may be. Oh well. Fuck ’em if they can’t take a joke.
Me too, feel like something’s about to pop and it ain’t my clit, although maybe I should work on that a bit. Something’s looming. Something’s blooming. Something.
oh — interesting, patty. thanks for chiming in. given that it can feel very polarizing and intense as a full moon approaches, and we have *so* much square activity and Uranus-pluto activity and Aries Point activity… i think that makes perfect sense.
easy to start feeling overwhelmed or a bit at sea if things are aspecting your chart the right (or wrong) way.
anyone else feeling that?
i think i’ve been too focused to feel dread, which is nice. but i’m ready to get off the computer now. long day!
Amanda, it has been a disquieting day for me. I keep having some very strong feelings of dread. I wonder if anyone else is feeling that way?
oh dear… don’t tell me everyone misinterpreted the title and thought this was some sort of sordid personal tell-all, did they?
it’s just some friendly daily astrology, honest!
ohhhh… i know…. you were all too (ahem) “busy” today to stop by PW, weren’t you!
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