That player button is a special edition of Planet Waves FM, lasting just under one hour. Anatoly has gone to bed, so it won’t appear on the Old Player or iTunes till morning, though you can play it here. (Ah, they seem to have mysteriously appeared.)
I’ve also just released a compilation of my favorite articles about the transit of Venus, including today’s subscriber edition and the June monthly horoscope, which has one of my main articles about the event.
Between today’s edition and the June horoscope you can get a good picture of what this might mean for you, especially if you know your ascendant and your Moon and you work with those as well.
Have a lovely evening…and weekend…
And for those who like a bit of sin with their coffee but wanna get off easy: http://www.discountindulgence.com/store/flesh#ecwid:category=2788277&inview=product12129340&mode=category&offset=0&sort=nameAsc
Thank you, Eric, for the wise words about Venus and the Sun, the feminine and the masculine and the necessary balancing. Especially thank you for the David Tresemer interview and information.
Love the simple guitar playing while you were speaking, and look forward to hearing more. I found it relaxing as I listened on this Sunday afternoon, a haven of calm in the vortex of the astrological eclipse events. Thank you.
JannKinz
If you wake up tonight with a boner for Venus, you don’t have to wait. Watch the Strawberry Moon eclipse. There is a nice explanation at NASA and a video, if you prefer to watch.
http://science.nasa.gov/science-news/science-at-nasa/2012/28may_strawberry/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aszUiI6J-L8
Just checked google’s offerings on definition of Compersion. Eric’s article entitled, “It’s not about sex. It’s about Self” (published Feb 18, 2008) comes up 2nd, just after Wikipedia. Eric’s is by far the more extensive, clarifying – partly for the personal experiences he shares.
The astrology of the moment is helping me open to these ideas like never before. (Have tried a number of times in past few years to follow Eric’s articles on sexuality, masturbation, etc. – just not able get with it)
A few paragraphs from Eric’s article finally really hit the mark for me:
“Often, even when we find love, we live with a sense of incredible frailty, sensitivity and imminent doom. This is usually based on the fear of not being good enough; indeed, at times on a total absence of self-esteem.
The second thing we fear is being close to others. A great many people don’t like who they are inside, and are terrified about the prospect of exposing this to others. Many people survive by making up a fake character, and if someone gets close to us, we may fear that they’ll figure out we’re empty and thus undeserving of love.
So, our relationships and desire to relate to one another are based on need created by being alone, and the rules are set by the fear of abandonment and the fear of intimacy. This is different than it might be, were we surrounded by awareness of sharing, abundance and self-acceptance.”
It’s as if a veil is being lifted and I can see all the way back into my past – and my eyes and heart are filled with compassion for how I’ve lived, for all the pain and confusion and compromises I settled for, for how much I did not understand.
What a glorious time this is.
Thanks Granma! You’ve done a really helpful summing up of it all.
“I never knew that chasing tail could be so educational”. Ha! Love it! There’s a great short story/film there. You know I think I dreamed about you last night, Mystes? It was all very ‘misty’ and unclear – but I think we were having a conversation about the things we said on the blog here. Good luck with your lovely boy.
Eric – thank you for this audio boner ( ‘bonus’ ?) hour.
Your summary of the core spiritual/symbolic message of the Transit of Venus 2012 – just what I needed.
I think I’m getting closer to understanding this shift in relationships you call Compersion – being in relationship with self, giving other space to be in relationship to their self, connecting with other from this inner place of self-strength and self-knowing.
I’m finally getting the meaning of Venus transit in GEMINI – communing with self, inner and outer, soul and ego, consciousness to body; contact with Self as inner source.
I love the image, “The Solar System IS our body” (!) (mind-blowing like the image of our circulatory and lymphatic systems being the ‘rivers’ of our bodies)
Your words, “We have abundance and the power to take care of each other” (!)
Thank you!
Liminali… yes ~ and maybe yes. I feel myself slipping off of the edge of this worklife, not sure how much longer I can put 300+ miles of road under my ass every week and retain my sanity (oh hell, what am I saying? that’s long gone…). I need to get ready to leap from this lumbering clydesdale over to my flying monkey {{cackle}} ‘ere long. Pretty sure I can keep everything in my pockets while I do it, but having the manchild in better equilibrium would enhance my ability to focus.
I *miss* me.
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Thanks Huffy. I presume you’re referring to the SHR concert. As that boyfriend once opined: “I never knew that chasing tail could be so educational.” Poor thing.
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“I owe him – I’m just not entirely clear how to ‘repay’ the debt so that he recovers his initial clarity.”
You have a plan in place for >>>this one<<<
*Bottom* line?
Trust in its fruition
Gorgeous comment, Mystes!
LMAO, Amanda!
*so* glad to know I’m not the only one either! Great minds and all.
Or it’s my Libra ascendent Venus boner talking…
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HS, glad to see yer paying attention. It’s all a huge trip, idn’t it? Everywhere. I once saw a boyfriend –regional head of CSICOP at the time– flip *smooth* out at a tent revival. We went to hear Sweet Honey in the Rock and yup, the Wave done picked him up and rolled him like a beach ball. He *never* knew what hit him. Sobbing and shaking and oh-Hallelujuah and all of it, baby. I’d had a little more experience with the Goddess, so knew when to not let Her skirts touch me as She swept through (you didn’t know Jezuz was a girl, now did you?). Hoot city.
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“Every time I’m scrolling past this post, out of the corner of my eye, it looks like it says “Transit of Venus Boner Hour”! ”
OMG — i did the same thing earlier!!!
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hahaha! *so* glad to know i’m not the only one.
and you know, i think that might have been an equally fitting title, actually.
thanks Mystes for the extra back story! Yes, I agree and am not enamored myself with it. I’m glad you held back from showing your son. The whole system needs a total shake down. I’m tired of these lamas parading around with throngs of people prostrating themselves for reasons they have no idea about. The money that pours into these monasteries is pretty gross too. There are some incredible teachers who are working on changing things but a lot are puppets of tradition and the people that financially support them. Granted, there is a fine line between supporting a retreat or lama overseeing a center providing instruction and guidance, and simply allowing many people to get swept up in “Lama Worship”. It’s so easy to lose the true message when we treat these lamas like movie stars. Anyway, just a little rant. Not to overly criticize but “the Dharma corporation” has taken over the true pure Buddhist teachings in many ways. Even in Tibet, the old days were so corrupt. Throngs of farmers and lay Tibetans rushed to worship even the mere glimpse of a lama hoping he’d throw a spec of rice at them, that it would be a huge blessing to even touch his mule.
And yet, we can have such a powerful transforming experience. Once (I was around 20) during an empowerment of Dorje Palmo, I broke out sobbing in the middle of the room. Something happened there and I was totally out of control. I was almost hyperventilating. At the end of the empowerment, I went up this beautiful lama in my blithering condition, and all he said to me was, keep practicing the Dharma and things will get better. I thought, that’s all? No hug??? Geeze. But, he was amazing in that he didn’t encourage dependency on him. And that is true compassion. Transformation is internal and he basically said, it starts when you sit alone with yourself. Btw, I don’t claim to be transformed – I just cried my brains out, thats all.
Every time I’m scrolling past this post, out of the corner of my eye, it looks like it says “Transit of Venus Boner Hour”!
Get your Venus Boner ON, peeps!
Art and Music
http://youtu.be/m__DKgTRpjA
Eric, thank you for sharing your voice and song. It is nice hearing you pluck a string occasionally as you speak. It will be interesting to hear the music evolove. (that is a new word I typed coincidentally, being a combination of love and evolution)
Music can access the spirit, and I offer a fun example performed by Steve Martin and the Steep Canyon Rangers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFWA1A9XFi8&feature=related
Wow… HS, very interesting trajectory. Very.
Here’s a little backstory: I did my very first closed intensive retreat on Aug. 8-11, mid-90s. Q was born on Aug 12 one year later. The traditional teaching days for *my* guardian are Aug. 8-11 (I wouldn’t find this out till 2000 or so); Her empowerment day? Aug. 12. But she’s not the kid’s guardian. His is related (oh aren’t they all?!) but makes my Lady look like a water nymph.
When he was 2 a prominent geshe in England asked that we come over and let him check the kid out for signs of accomplishment. Ex freaked completely out, and as I wasn’t all that enamored of the Tibetan hierarchy myself, we declined.
There’s something about big incarnates that pulls the ‘tiger’s milk in clay pot’ number. As the clay pot-in-residence (Now! with extra glaze!!) I am thrilled to hear you get what your mom was up to. And it inspires me, son. I say *thank you* in several languages (including twilight).
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Wow… HS, very interesting trajectory. Very.
Here’s a little backstory: I did my very first closed intensive retreat on Aug. 8-11, mid-90s. Q was born on Aug 12 one year later. The traditional teaching days for *my* guardian are Aug. 8-11 (I wouldn’t find this out till 2000 or so); Her empowerment day? Aug. 12. But she’s not the kid’s guardian. His is related (oh aren’t they all?!) but makes my Lady look like a water nymph.
When he was 2 a prominent geshe in England asked that we come over and let him check the kid out for signs of accomplishment. Ex freaked completely out, and as I wasn’t all that enamored of the Tibetan hierarchy myself, we declined.
There’s something about big incarnates that pulls the ‘tiger’s milk in clay pot’ number. As the clay pot-in-residence (Now! with extra glaze!!) I am thrilled to hear you get what your mom was up to. And it inspires me, son. I say *thank you* in several languages (including twilight).
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Mystes and Mandy, thank you for sharing your stories about your sons. I’m touched by them.
Mystes, when I was 15 I was brought by my mom to a Buddhist centre and almost immediately I was attracted to a Dharma Protector (I won’t say the name for privacy and samaya). I said “This is my Yidam!” …but he wasn’t a Yidam. I didn’t care. I was playing the long trumpets during pujas and was reciting his mantra and loving it. During this time, I was caught in some shitty mental spaces with my dad. I was concurrently realizing that he was a toxic influence on me and an outdated source of information. But he was still my dad. When I met my Guru a year later (at 16), my life deeply changed. It wasn’t until 19 that I finally gathered the strength to confront him and tell him I didn’t want to see him. My mom supported me but didn’t push that choice on me. She understood I need to arrive at my own conclusions. The combined blessing from my Guru and Yidam made it possible for me to launch me into my adult years. It was in those years that I repaired much damage from my father regarding women and my good relationship with my mom. The next 15 years brought its own challenges and successes, as my mom was pretty strict and didn’t take any slouching. Too strict at times yes, and later it became attachment out of fear of being abandoned. But she and I had the type of relationship and circumstance that somehow always gave me strength and solidity. Or perhaps the structure for learning this in my life (I have natal Saturn in Cancer opp Venus in Cap). So, I love my mom for giving me all the good and hard – ultimately it’s up to me cultivate it all on the path. She said it was the hardest thing to go through watching me struggle with my father. I’m also glad I lived with her because I may have not had the necessary antidotes to extract myself from his energy. If that happened, either I would be another asshole on this planet, or my healing would have taken a much more painful trajectory. My mom gave me that initial exposure and I jumped right in because it felt good and I felt happy. I still have a deep and dear connection to my protector. He is everywhere and nowhere, in everything and in nothing, stillness and violence, luminous and empty, all pervasive compassion and encompassing awareness.
Hugs to you beautiful Moms!
HS
Hmm… Mandy, I am a human, so suffering is at the core of this experience. Of course. And I have an open house for what that suffering has to say, for its gifts. But no, ‘deep fear, pain, grief’ are not driving this inquiry.
This is just a puzzle from the last transit, one for which I have many pieces, but others are just beyond my awareness. PW is a place where sometimes people offer things I can’t see. My story is very different than yours, so while I appreciate your candor, they simply don’t apply to this situation.
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Mystes: By all means, please correct me if I am wrong, but I think that underneath all your words lie some deep fear, pain and grief. I can only assume that you have lost a child, and for that, my heart cries with you.
May you and your son receive profound healing at this time. Namaste.
Oh and Eric, fyi – playing the guitar and singing is a piece of piss compared to accompanying yourself on the guitar while you’re talking. Like everything – you start small and build up. The very first song I played on the guitar was Home on the Range, when I was 11 years old – with my mother patiently listening on as the out of tune guitar strings buzzed and twanged.
Hey Mandy, I said that children who are set loose before they can demonstrate self-sustenance can be characterized as ‘shambling beghards.’ This is the position I choose and sustain vis my own children — well, the surviving one, anyway. I’ve seen quite a few here in Austin (drag-rats, they call themselves) and elsewhere. Their parents have given up, mainly because they can’t take the heat – and their kids really do want for parenting (I’ll give that one to his dad… he *can* take that heat.).
Anyway, I didn’t direct that description to your or yours. I am quite sure you are not anything like a beghard or a beguine. Shambling optional.
Mystes: I didn’t mention anything about legalities. I think you misunderstood my example of content/details. As far as I’m concerned the details might be different but the context is the same. I wasn’t suggesting that you tell him to leave your house – I said I didn’t fight my son when he chose not to visit mine.
And by the way, I happen to be one of those “shambling beggars” at this time.
I wish you the best, much love to you.
“Always be kind to strangers and derelicts. They may be Angels in disguise, here to test your character.”
Thanks Eric! treated myself to your PW FM – after a (fairly) hard day’s work. So much great stuff here. And I firmly believe that your vision will become reality – as it did with PW. Uncanny how old Chico features here – when I had this amazing dream last night about playing the banjo in a music shop, and I wrote about it before listening to this. Look forward to hearing more of your music in the future.
Mystes – you’re clearly so tuned in, that the more you let go (and receive), the more you’ll be given the information you need.
Paola, yes I can see that, but children are oddly orthogonal to one’s “own” happiness. From what I can see, they are not only sources of joy, but are built to discomfit and disarray expectations.
There is always a kink to work around/with when it comes to kids. The imago that children set up is inside of a future I wouldn’t normally be able to discern if this was just about me and my little DNAstream. But it isn’t. So the guardian says: there is a certain misalignment in the body of this person, and not only am I telling you about it now, but you’ll get to correct it for four other men over the next 7 weeks. Get this and get it clearly.
Q took a certain hit at the moment of birth – he was face-presentation, which would have wrecked me, but might have allowed a simpler restoration of the brain/brainpan alignment. Instead, at the last minute, he tucked his chin ~~while IN the birth canal~~ and wound up with a brow presentation, which squished everything sideways. He did this consciously, voluntarily in order to keep me from splitting like a watermelon in the sun.
I owe him – I’m just not entirely clear how to ‘repay’ the debt so that he recovers his initial clarity.
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Mystes, as your question concerns the V transit, you could visualize the result that you desire and ‘energize’ it as it’s being discussed here on PW in these days… Like *yourself* happy and feeling well because everything went in place… or whatever you desire.
Mandy, when you said what your son did in those six years it gave me the chills. Respect for you.
And , last, I’ll throw this in – just a coincidence. The D-Day, Normandy invasion, leading to Europe liberation, was at dawn on June 6th, 1944.
Huffy, thanks for reinforcing the guardian issue… Q’s guardian is a particularly fierce dharmaprotector; the kid has a powerful connection to him that has *nothing* to do with me. I have done little or nothing to claim or disclaim that relationship – on a certain level it is none of my business. But the Protector shows up when *I* am being particularly dense and makes suggestions. I carry them out to the best of my ability.
Mandy, I don’t think I’m going to become estranged from my son, for reasons that are too extensive to go in here. His dad despises me, but is not a drunk or addict, just hails from a very different ethical framework than mine. Enough said there.
While your story seems like it worked out for you (and really, I’m delighted)… “letting go” of a 16 year old? This isn’t my boyfriend, this is my son. No skipping stages, no giving up. He already has perfect autonomy vis his spiritual life, but legal autonomy? Sure, as soon as he demonstrates that he can earn rent, feed clothe and transport himself. Until then, I won’t inflict another shambling beggard on the world.
I don’t struggle with his dad, I’ve given up that fight. Kid comes home when he wants, and there is nothing I can or will do to affect that. But I am still present, still providing space, food, clothing, education, transport, art.
And still trying to figure out how to get A lined up with B. I have an idea now, thanks Huffy… and thanks Mandy for sharing your story. I suppose all of your other children are alive?
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Mystes: I grew up with a gentle mother who taught me about God/Spirit. My dad was a violent/racist/homophobic athiest. I teach my kids about God/Spirit/Metaphysics. Their dad is of the attitude ‘Life’s a bitch and then you die’. He gathers with a bunch of friends every Tuesday night and they call themselves ‘The Woman Haters Club”, he is an alcoholic and addict. I left when the kids were 3 and 5 to save myself. We had joint custody. My son started getting into trouble with the law at 14. At 16 he was dealing pot. I told his probation officer that I thought it was best if my son was with me permanently. When the ex heard this, he snapped. He told me I was a horrible mother right in front of my son (my son wasn’t liking me too much then, I was cramping his style and I could see him smiling in the corner when the ex said this to me).
My son didn’t speak to me for 6 years. We would pass on the street and he wouldn’t even acknowledge me. The ex has told them that I am crazy because of all this ‘stuff’ I am into. My son has made it one of his life’s missions to prove me wrong (hasn’t happened yet). He is an Aquarius (intelligence through the roof!!), a rebel who hasn’t found his cause yet.
I did the best thing I could for both of us – I let him go. I voluntarily handed him over to Pluto (he was going anyway) and prayed that he would find his way back (he is Pluto in Scorpio). He called 6 years later, high as a kite and everything came out. During that conversation, the loudest thing I heard him say was “Mom, that’s what I love about you, you’re a really good listener”. THAT is what he needs from me, so that’s now what I do. And wasn’t I a proud mama when I learned that during those six years he studied the history of the world, ancient texts and writings, metaphysics and had a huge tattoo of the 4 elements on his back.
When the moment comes for your son, whatever the experience is, your words will haunt him. It is then that he will be ready. You have to trust and have faith that you are a wonderful mother and have taught him well.
You might want to try completely disengaging from even discussing this stuff with him. Tell him that you understand it’s ‘not his thing’, you respect his choice (this will make him feel great, like you are treating him as an adult and supporting his own free will in life). This will open the space for him to approach you of his own volition.
You and your ex are in a power struggle and your son is in the middle. You are each pulling on one of his arms and if you keep going one of you will pull so hard that the other arm rips off.
Have faith. With a mother like you, the kid can’t go wrong!
Mystes, have you already tried asking your son’s spiritual guardian (the one who communicated with you) this question? Might be just the time to do it, at this Venus transit, eight years on…
I have a kind of long anecdote/question for PW – concerning the last and upcoming V transit. Haven’t yet listened to the podcast, so this might be getting ahead of myself, but here goes:
Went to my journals to check on June 8, 2004 and it was a doozey. When I got home that morning I found Jerusalem (my principle consort) in conversation with Randy Jewart, the director of Austin Green Art, on my front porch. There was a thrill of some kind of recognition beyond just seeing two of my favorite men on the planet in such deep communion. Later in the day, that shiver would name itself, but for moment I just figured it was lust.
I shoo’ed Randy away ~~”We’ve got kissin’ to do, so off you go…”~~ and proceeded into the festivities. J and I were in bed most of the day for that transit. This bout of tantra and sex (they are not the same thing) was so complex that I took extensive notes on the inner and outer events — as we were going through them. J would stop and sketch, I would take notes.
Long story short, Jerusalem’s father died pretty close to the moment of our hallelujuah. By the end of the day, Randy’s grandfather also died. Within hours two more 70+ year old gentlemen in our close circles passed. Not to mention Ronnie Reagan.
That night I dreamed that I was talking with one of my son’s spiritual guardians and he told me that the kid’s birth had moved his corpus callosum so that it wasn’t true to the sagittal structure of his skull. Said that I would need to correct that alignment or Q would have an exceptionally rigid character structure. (Flash forward 8 years: Oh so correct.)
Now the thing about all of the men who died that week is that all of them were exposed to things that should have ripened them into compassion and wisdom, and all of them developed very rigid views in an effort to fend off their innate awareness. Their deaths restored their ‘original settings,’ I am *very* happy to say, since I did transference-of-consciousness for each of them (cept Reagan) and I can state categorically that the deathing process takes a *long* time and there are many opportunities therein to get it right.
But that doesn’t seem to do supermuch for the lifetime of harsh decisions one leaves behind. Dommage.
When I went back and reviewed the journal entry for this last transit, the Aha! moment came. Well, blow me down. I did try to adjust this via monoatomics when my son was about 9 years old, but his father convinced him it was the devils brew and scared the kid from taking the 3-5 drops that was reorienting the spine/brain/skull alignment. And the generalized contempt for my insight and methodologies are now part of his ongoing environment (in his dad’s house). So I have to figure out how to neutralize that as well.
Here’s the question: how do I go about communicating the corpus/saggital issue to the teenager? With me in particular, he demands absolute adherence to structure, and if he doesn’t get it,e.g., if I’m ten minutes late to pick him up, he throws a 3-year old’s tantrum, but in a 16 year old body. And he’s got some stamina, can scream at me for 20-30 minutes without missing a beat.
So, Wavers, besides Venus as stairway-to-heaven (well sorta, heaven comes later) – how can I work with this to help the teen get the brain/skull/spinal pathways realigned? It can’t be too late. . .
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Ok, it took me some repetead reading and listening, but I finally got the importance of the Venus transit of the Sun. Everybody who wants to definitely grasp it should listen to this audio… thank you Eric, it’s great.
How the masculine energy is unbalaced right now in the world is… so much under our eyes, every day, that we think it ‘normal’. Agghhh… Just open a newspaper, and read the titles.
And yes, PW is a wonderful playground… bright with energy.
I’ve found an affirmation that sounds perfect for the Venus transit of the Sun:
“I bring joy back to the center of my heart”.
(Thanks to Louise Hay).
Wow, thank you Eric.
(‘You have the option to suspend any efforts to fix things — and then size up what is so, and respond appropriately.’)
Working weekend, yep, have that here too. No-pants army, oh how this delights me!
Draft me!
I’ll be sticking close to ya’ll this weekend, checking in so I don’t completely check out. Very exciting times but it’s easy to get overwhelmed. Like being spun around in the dark and hoping for a voice that’s by the door that leads to the…no pants army?
So Planet Waves cousins…MARCO!
Thanks Eric! Another working weekend – but will settle down to a good listen asap.
Yay. Bath listening before socializing with the no-pants army! 🙂 Thanks!