Today the Moon enters Cancer at 1:42 am EDT, on its way to the first quarter Moon in Leo on Sunday. This means it is still in its first week of growing larger, gathering energy on its way to the Full Moon in just over a week. It’s a time to move projects forward. With the Moon in its home sign these next couple days, it looks like the Moon is helping you to gather up the various threads of your emotional tapestry so you can weave them with integrity.
Quarter Moons are squares between the Sun and Moon; Full Moons are oppositions between the same. Each comes with its own kind of tension: the first resolved through action, the second, through negotiation. In both cases, it helps to see a clear pattern in your emotional fabric; it helps not to have loose ends or gaps that may unravel you when there is conflict or tension. Yet you don’t want it woven so tight that it has no give, no stretch, no ability to drape softly over the contours of your life as its circumstances shift.
We often find ourselves at one end of the spectrum or the other, however: either unraveling and fraying or presenting a stiff barrier like canvas to the weather of others. We’re human, after all. This has been an unusual spring that promises to get more interesting in the next month or so; see if you can take the next couple days to gather some of these emotional threads as the Moon moves through Cancer.
Early on, the Moon makes sextiles to the Sun and Ceres in Taurus and Mars in Virgo. With regard to Sun-Ceres, how are you feeling about your finances and material environment? How are you feeling about your ability to nourish? Are you letting your physical senses inform your emotional understanding, and are you able to increase the pleasures and minimize the irritations in some way?
Mars has recently taken us on a mental journey through desire (and the wounds to our desire). The Moon wants to receive that new understanding in a way that brings it home (Cancer being a sign of domesticity). How are you feeling about your Mars retrograde discoveries now that the planet is moving forward? Gather these threads, because they offer opportunities that must be acted upon.
The Cancer Moon makes trine aspects to Neptune and Chiron in Pisces. This aspect is all flow, and very receptive. Can you feel Neptune offering more creative ways to conceive of and deal with your emotions? Do you need to spot-check your feelings for signs that you’re working under some kind of illusion? If you tend toward self-delusion, Chiron may raise a red flag. Moon trine Chiron is not a ‘hard’ aspect, so you’re not likely to feel ‘cornered’ by any unresolved pain. Just notice any blips on your emotional radar and stay open to the flow of Pisces’ nutrient-rich waters (i.e., creativity) as you identify places where your healing is still in progress.
Finally, the last couple threads the Cancer Moon will bring to your loom are squares to Uranus and Mercury in Aries, and an opposition to Pluto in Capricorn. These aspects bring some tension — just as the quarter Moon and Full Moon do. But it will be brief, and may feel familiar. The Uranus-Pluto square, which Mercury has just passed through, has been warming us up for evolution and revolution for a couple years now. Its first exact hit is one of the spring events you’ll want to have your emotional fabric pliable for. Listen inwardly as the Moon makes contact with these points. How are you feeling about speaking your mind? Are you feeling energized or fearful about the changes you know you need to make? Where is your self-esteem right now, and how are the ideas you have about yourself changing?
As the Cancer Moon and you gather up these emotional threads and start weaving, you may find the quarter Moon this weekend comes with a clearer sense of how best to move things forward as we approach the Scorpio Full Moon on May 5. At the very least, see if you can identify the patterns and hang loose.
ClumsyCrab – Thank you! I’m really very fortunate that my ex and I are managing to remain friends, in spite of an incredibly rocky patch last year, precipitated by his realisation that I really had moved on. I’m sorry that, even if it is temporary, you’re not able to work things out with your ex. Sometimes that’s the only way to do it. Sometimes a friendship is detrimental, and can only work after a necessary break.
I don’t have someone in my life right now, and I feel sad at times because of that. However, I decided to end my last relationship because it feels like I am preparing for something, and that I need to be clear about what I want and don’t want – and I know I’m clearer than I have ever been before – but also to build up a sense of self-worth so that I am able to put my own needs before the relationship’s, or his. That sounds selfish, but it doesn’t feel that way. It feels deeply important for both of us, and for my son, and for any future children that I may have.
Sarah- hugs to you. My divorce was finalized yesterday, as well. It was a long separation (many of our friends were unaware things had not been finalized. This was mostly for financial reasons.), and though we had made amends and had been amicable, seeking to understand where we went wrong and to forgive, the last few weeks were rocky and ugly and I fear we may no longer be friends. Such a shame. How fortunate you are to have your friendship. May newly single life bring you abundant opportunities and adventure!
Simultaneously, myriad opportunities are opening up while multiple setbacks and opportunities pop up. It’s an odd juxtaposition, to feel moving so forward while being held back – as if I might burst out of a harness somewhere and go flying. getting lots of work, but having to wait a long time for payments from several gigs. Paying rent late.
On one hand I have this, on the other, I am discovering resources available to me and lining up great work connections for the near future. The trick has been not to get down and feel like a total failure. I’m trying hard to prove that I can be responsible and independent once again, and feel like still being a bit of a mess makes me look less than so, even though I know under the surface all I am doing all of the right things.
New relationship continues to surprise. Somehow he seems to strike the right balance of understanding I need space to work on myself and knowing when I need comfort and reassurance. I don’t feel my usual need to smother too much. He lets me glow. 🙂
The big, key difference I am noticing here in these changes is that even when I am most terrified or most mournful of the past, I am more calm than I have been about all of this chaos than I have ever been in my life. I seem to have more grace and feel like I can handle snags and confrontations with a clearer mind and better composure. This has been a great time for knowing when to put my foot down sternly without being aggressively defensive and without becoming a doormat.
I got this. I think?
To complete what has been said, this evening the moon will be in conjunction to the asteroid Achilles and sextile Jupiter.
Do you know the term Achilles heel? , from Wikipedia: an Achilles heel is a fatal weakness despite a general force, that could lead to the loss. Although the mythological reference relates to a physical vulnerability, the Achilles can refer in a metaphorical way to other attributes which may lead to failure or the fall.
Therefore he need his fault and this corresponds well to the trine that the moon had with Chiron allowing delay then the first quarter of the moon…
Thank you GWind. You are very kind.
Mimi, May those threads give you something to hold onto as you go through your process. My heart goes out to you. Such a delicate time.
Oh, and keep working harmoniously with that “push back” – it does indeed feel like a membrane.
Dear Burning River – thank you soooooo much! Keep swimming 🙂
Amanda. thank you SO MUCH for that link!
WOW Sarah. Big Hug. I am truly happy for you and sad with you all at once. I am closer to that happening for me (house has finally sold after over a year on the market) but the push back I am getting for my attempts underline “attemptS”) to “settle” are wearing me down. I just read a meditation about salmon swimming up stream. They somehow know that the place where there is the most “push back” in the stream (where the current against them is the strongest) means they have zeroed in on the correct course. I wept some as I read it, and am heartened again to give it all I’ve got before I die. For that is at the end, no matter what course I take. (I am not saying this in a sinister or dramatic way, but in the way that I need to talk to myself sometimes-I did not create the beginnings of my life but I can be responsible for the quality of its end,) Your “positive” (what I would call “walking in beauty”) outcome gives me hope for myself, but, today, mostly, it gives me true happiness for you.. Warmest best to you always. (((Sarah)))
and to backtrack to the Sun-Ceres conjunction for a moment, One.org is trying to get 15,000 postcards sent to the White House before the G8 Summit May 18.
The postcards are made from “plantable carrot seed paper” & have the message: “Help lift 50 million people out of poverty and save 15 million children from malnutrition through investments in agriculture.”
http://www.one.org/c/us/actnow/4265/?akid=3072.1805921.4bwc2d&rd=1&t=1
At the link, you can request three free postcards & there are ways to tell your friends, etc.
Dave and I are feeling closer than ever so on that front, things are wonderful. On the pressure I am feeling to DO something, I am still not sure how to go about doing it and still having doubts as to my own abilities but I am moving forward and doing small steps to make things happen.
I am lucky to have such a solid relationship base right now because the changes I am making will affect everyone. Dave is very supportive about them and the kids will be ok when they realize I am not going to take away from them but instead remain the stable foundation upon which they depend.
It is raining outside here in Flagsratt. The tree in our back yard has white blossoms and looks like popcorn has bloomed on the branches. Flowers are everywhere as this city wakes from a long and cold winter. That awakening is also going on in me.
In the past few weeks, Dave and I have been watching Anthony Robbins videos and these are connecting me to that thing I coudn’t name, that way to help others that I have felt compelled to do. It feels exciting and scary all at once.
Thanks, HS! It does, indeed. I’m not sure if it’s relevant, but my natal chart has Mars in 8th House – anyway, it feels fitting somehow.
And to everyone else here dealing with change, transformation and movement, hugs.
Could Orpheus be playing an important role right now? It’s standing at 10 deg Aries. I’ve also been feeling grief and loss, after sharing 20 years of my life with my husband, and now going all alone. The connection is still there. I just couldn’t stop the transformation.
Sarah, that sounds like a fair bit of 8th house stuff, huh? I salute you though. To move on in so many ways while walking through open doors that are still so new is well, hard.
Warm hugs,
HS
How wonderful it is to come across writing that so closely reflects my current inner landscape. My Father recently passed away. It was a beautiful passing, as these things go. Since then I’ve been hiding out, not quite ready to return to the world. But the world has been calling so I’m slowly headung back, feeling frayed and tattered. Today I search for those loose threads to begin mending a hole that will never heal.
It has been a momentous day, really. I received an offer on our house, which has been on the market for nearly a year; and then returned home to find that my Decree Absolute was granted on the 23rd April. So I am now a single woman. Mixed feelings. Joy, excitement, the feeling that I’m going to die, like, right now. Grief. My ex-husband and I just hugged, and we are committed to continuing what has been a deeply meaningful friendship. Gosh.
Thanks for this lovely blog, dear ones – and for the gorgeous photo, Amanda (even the caption is poetry!). Am still feeling pretty stuck and dark and afraid – but also know that stuff is moving, and that patience is the way through at the moment,for me.