Last night the Sun in Aries made its conjunction to Vesta and tomorrow it conjoins Eris. As much as we know about Eris – the myth behind the planet; its seemingly permanent placement in Aries (though Mike Wallace’s Eris was in late Pisces); the sense that it represents some sort of identity chaos or a ‘lost’ or cast-aside part of ourselves – astrology is still pretty new at understanding all of its nuances. Conjunctions of the Sun with a planet are one of the clearest ‘proofs’ we can get in forming delineations. It will be fun to see what the next few days produce in terms of ‘Eris news events’.
In some ways every day of this era is an ‘Eris day’ for each of us, since this planet has been in Aries for almost all of the last century as well as what we’ve experienced of this one. In some way, the themes of Eris have defined our collective experience of ‘self’; and it seems that with each decade’s new technologies, our conception of self and expression of self have had facets added and dispersed, rather than simplified or unified.
From our many individual online personas to ‘the powers that be’ deciding corporations count as another variety of ‘self’, things are getting curiouser and curiouser. It’s reasonable to expect — in this current phase of diffracted, identity-less uprisings (the Occupy Movement), attacks on the personhood of women, the talking heads in commercials proclaiming, “I am a PC” and the citizens of Facebook Nation declaring, “I am Trayvon” – that the Sun’s annual conjunction to Eris may come with a few surprises this year.
Considering that Mars stations direct this week too, it will be worth watching for revelations both within your self and in the news.
Judith Gayle wrote in her article Saturday, “things feel a bit differently these days, and in this time of internal chaos — with the unaware blindly defending their tribalism but the newly awake searching for options — some stray fact might be the pry-bar that lifts the lid and lets in the light.” Well now – that pretty much sums it up, doesn’t it? We’ve been writing all week about ongoing aspect structures spurring us to acknowledge our internal chaos and search for options. And with first Mercury and now Mars stationing direct, as well as Vesta holding open the door for the Sun, it seems the scene is set for some “stray fact” to pry the lid off of something we’ve been needing to get a good look at.
Culturally, there are many who seem staunchly unprepared to see and know whatever Sun-Eris has to show us. Personally, you may feel the same. After all, as Judith also wrote this weekend, “once you know a thing, you can’t un-know it.” That inability to un-know a thing speaks to a need to take responsibility, take action, make a decision, shift perspective. It can be intimidating. But the alternative – pretending ignorance or refusing to see – only leads to more fragmentation, not less. And that sounds even more daunting.
As mentioned at the beginning, Eris — ‘the cast-away woman’ — often represents some cast-off part of ourselves. We may struggle to recognize and acknowledge those parts, let alone accept and integrate them. Fear of how it may affect our relationships with others, guilt over cutting off a part of ourselves in the first place (no matter how justified, or necessary it seemed for survival), and the big question mark of ‘Then who will I be?’ get in the way. But try asking yourself over the next few days, ‘Who is the outlier in me?’ That is, who is the you nobody knows? Once you know her, you will not be able to un-know her.
sarah —
looks like it’s a case of the fancy (read: cumbersome and unwanted, but i forgot to ask the dealer not to put them in and charge the extra $100 for them) all-weather floor mat sticking under the gas pedal. it wasn’t hooked into the hook under the seat.
glad it not likely anything worse; may still get the car checked over just in case.
really, this is a trying week.
Rob – fabulous! Feeling better now 🙂
Amanda – sending you good-car vibes!
wow — wild stuff happening for everyone! AND: tonight my brand-new, 2012 car i’ve had about 6 or 7 weeks freaked out on me. as in, on the way to rehearse a play (about to be on time for once!!!), my gas pedal STUCK. luckily the brakes still worked, so i could pull over.
i tried turning it on again, but it immediately revved way high, and any attempt to put it in drive or reverse resulted in its wanting to take off like a shot.
oh, and did i mention i don’t own a cell phone? and that my little phone number notebook is not up-to-date, and i had not written my director’s number on the script (always do that!). so a went into the little sandwich shop to see if i had the number of someone who had his number. no luck there, but the friend who answered (waaaay on the other side of town) said he’d put his toddler in the car & come ferry me to rehearsal (in the next town). my heroes!
later, when the director had driven me back to my car & i called AAA, they told me that since i was parked in front of a car repair place, it would be “up to the driver’s discretion” whether or not to tow me, since technically AAA isn’t supposed to tow from a service center (b/c of people trying to get out of paying for a repair estimate).
luckily, the driver was a decent guy. and he could tell by the “new car smell” that i wasn’t lying.
but man oh man, is the dealership going to hear from me tomorrow.
btw — rob44: hilarious. 🙂
and: i *just now* noticed that this whole Sun-Vesta-Eris conjunction is conjunct my chiron. gee whiz.
Anybody here has Eris conjunct natal Chiron? I have the impression this is a tough one to live with…
I awoke from a satisfying luxurious night of sleep and from light buoyant dreams
Upon waking, my energy took a tour of the inner landscape and I followed it with mental alertness. It swept through so fast circling my organs, almost as if ‘it’ were checking for any sign of depletion.
Surreal moment of healing – awesome.
Rob44: Brilliant riff, man, brilliant.
Thanks Rob. I needed that LOL. Your week was obviously better than mine.
I think my outlier just wants to find and do the fun stuff.
This is a brilliant question: “‘Who is the outlier in me?’ That is, who is the you nobody knows?” And it does sum up something that doesn’t actually feel like it’s apparent, like a nagging feeling in your gut or something you wish you could remember. Immediately when I first read this, I was reminded of when I was a little girl – maybe 5 or 6 years old. I used to stand at the end of the driveway and squint really hard to see how far I could see. I would tell myself that when I worked up the courage or got “older” I would walk in a continuous trajectory toward that far off place I was squinting so hard to try to get a lock on. Around the same time as I had this curious habit, I developed a rather distuburing pattern of sleepwalking. These early sleepwalking episodes would land me in places I considered terrifying as a child – I would wake up behind the furnace in the basement or bump my head on the base of the coffee table in the dark in the dead of night. The confusing thing about these episodes was my almost total involuntary recollection, coupled with a terrifying sense of not having any control whatsoever over it. Eventually, these dead of night excursions got more explorative in nature and just a little dangerous too. But, as I got older, there was a part of me that actually wanted to succumb to that other world at play, no matter what the cost or danger – it became a game of chance. If I woke up behind the garage in the snow on a January night, I started to like it. I once woke up from an episode precariously perched inside the giant maple tree in front of the house and fell out of the tree when I startled out of the state. As silly as this might sound, that sleepwalking wonder IS the outlier in me…..that person who wants to be led by something other than conditioning and needs to trust in a cosmic safety net. Suddenly, when I was around 13 years old, the episodes suddenly stopped and did not ever return again until the very recent last couple of years. It’s hard to say why it’s been retriggered, I suspect I know why already but I can’t know for sure. Nowadays though, the fun and wonder has been sucked out of it and now it’s just an issue of what I’ll bump into and break or what task I’ll attempt to perform while under the spell. Maybe the “outlier in me” is trying to recapture that sense of abandon and wonder that was lost by so many years of living a life of mechanical function. Interestingly and maybe even poignantly, this is the me that my own parents and family never even knew about……
Talk about edgy. The week so far has been nothing but glitches, like a zombie Merc Retro.
Checked into work yesterday to realign the Hubble Space Telescope, only to find that I’d inadvertently programmed it to take photos of everything in sight in Polaroid over the weekend. So much for stunning resolution on those pics.
Then, my Lexus was crushed by a Caterpillar bulldozer–for the SECOND TIME–while parked next to a construction zone. And this after I’d deliberately moved the “Do Not Park Near Construction Zone” sign to a different spot to make the dozer operator work somewhere else. I guess some people just don’t know how to read.
On top of that, a former love finally tracked me down on Facebook after years of searching for me. Just to tell me I still suck. I don’t know why it took her so long: she’s been my department head for three years. You’d think some people would remember you by face, you know?
But the icing on the cake from hell was me carefully lining up elevendy hundred dominoes in perfect order on the employee cafeteria floor, only to have them completely knocked down–in perfect order, of course–by a co-worker’s experimental robot sent through the doors as a ‘joke’. It was only my infinite patience and a well-aimed jumbo fire extinguisher that kept that little incident from really getting out of hand. Sorry, next-generation Mars Rover, but your rock-picking future has been modified.
And this evening I get a notice to meet with the Director personally tomorrow Great. What more could go wrong this week? Hell is other people.
Edgy? YES. Reading everyone’s posts I feel–gosh–at least we are all together in this–which is taking the edge off in a weird sort of way for me–LOL
This Eris/Sun conjunction is sextiling my natal Uranus/Merc conjunction in Geminie right now—so keeping my mouth SHUT is taking all the self-control and forethought energy that I have and I am applying it. Phew.
Because of a phone call yesterday I have composed in my mind two very long letters (really email) to two important people in my life and planning to copy one of them to a third important person (two of the three are my father and sister)– explaining exactly what they have gone just TOO far with– and then considering the consequences of never hearing from them again EVER as being quite ok. Yes. It’s bad.
Fortunately I have some wise friends to talk with before I make life changing decisions like that–and am talking with them. This is really not how I will decide to handle these problems–I know my cooler, fair judgment will again prevail–
But from my perspective right now, it is not me so much as the Eris in someone else that is stirring up this disagreeable confusion and alienation and making it look like me IF I go with my-already-expressed-in-this-comment reaction. It’s like-which Eris is going to win? Theirs or mine. I choose to help my Eris find a different way that hopefully will not only satisfy but also help to heal her.
O Sarah–that laser robot boss nuking hand ray is the best yet. I am going to start working on that–silent but deadly. :>)
Love and good luck –yeah–good luck–to everyone.
((((PW Community))))
as for cast-away (from this Pisces with the Eris/Moon conjunction at 8 Aries – is Uranus there yet?) —
The Eris/Outlier me is the one who stands vigilant (Pallas) outside the city but still yet like Vesta because it is more of a tending than a guarding. But this too is Ceres who feels pain along with determination as she scans sky, earth, sea for those lost, forsaken and forgotten. Too, Outlier me is like Persephone in that she has eaten the fruit of knowledge; she can not un-know what she knows – she can never fully return “home” or to that from which she came.
Natal Eris on Moon
Natal Pallas on MC
Natal Ceres dead center Cancer (mid way between Pluto and Persephone)
Natal Persophene currently being transited by Venus in Geminii
Yes, there is a story here. Fer sure.
Thanks, PW. Thanks everyone.
xo
Amanda – waaaay more than Merc Rx. Waaaay more. This morning I had a steel bedframe fall on me massively bruising my left wrist, but (thanks guardian angels) narrowly missing my head etc. (I was shopping for sr. prom shirt/jacket for my son at the thrift store. – The 18 year old Scorpio son who can’t remotely act appropriately these days. – It was a case of another shopper being completely oblivious to what they were doing). That’s the biggest mishape – other than that – no such thing as cell phones working properly etc. Lots of magnatism where it isn’t usually.
I have not been hanging in these corridors over the past few months (since November actually) and it made me think of the discussion following Len’s post yesterday about the Mars Rx and what it is that got started in November.
I did some serious thinking about chart Ruler/Mars’ journey thru my 6th house Virgo and it is only now so clear that it has been HELL. I am so grateful sometimes for the community, as I read everyone’s posts last night and it made me feel better and connected to know how everyone has been experiencing the Mars ass-backwards. (BTW, was super happy to hear some had “positive” health and exercise experiences but it seems most people are sooooo over it, like me.)
To put it succinctly: it has been one delay after another in my little old “Work” world….stops and starts and carrots dangling then being yanked away and a strength within me to endure that I never knew existed.
I know I’ve been due for a Spring cleanse and have literally been unable to take the first step, although I’m summoning every ounce of my strength to start this wknd when I got Mars again moving forward….this lady could not do it while it was going backwards.
Thanks again for everyone-2012 is one hell of a year so far…….God bless!
“It will be fun to see what the next few days produce in terms of ‘Eris news events’.”
I’ve got two!
Santorum is out of the race for president.
Facebook has a new filter where it blocks you from talking about anything that could be considered inflammatory. I haven’t been able to find any news bits, but I have many friends who have been either straight up blocked or forced to click “If your comment is irrelevant or inappropriate, you may be blocked from commening on public posts. Please review your comment before posting”. Things like the words Santorum, or names of terrorists, or stuff like that sets it off. Don’t know if it’s desktop and mobile, or just desktop.
I seem to have access to a friend’s post who has a commenter who compiled the list of all of the watchwords. I’ll see if I can dig it up when I get home.
The kids are feeling out of sorts, Dave’s work is driving him crazy (working as a teacher on the rez with kids who don’t respect authority, especially white people in authority, and with Native bosses who routinely give lower marks to non-Native teachers during reviews that will follow him), I woke up with pink-eye and we are hearing that this weekend we may get snow just when we are really looking forward to spring.
Sunday night my olest daughter panicked at 2 AM and came to our bedorrm scared. She had choked on some milk last week while laughing and now she seems to choke on every beverage she drinks. She was terrified out of proportion to the incident because she kept feeling her throat mis-swallow afterward and got very afraid it was something serious. She normally doesn’t go off like that so it was weird. I took her to the doctor yesterday (more to rule anything out and calm her fears) and he said it is spasms and that she is ok. Her relief was palpable.
Electronics are working ok so far but Dave forgot a folder this morning and had to return to get it, thus making him late for work. The principal had told Dave (during his review last week) that she only had five lesson plans when in fact she had e-mailed him some months ago saying she was missing 5. He had sent all the plans except those five via e-mail. The missing five were placed in her inbox. So now he has to prove that he e-mailed them but it may not help because she is notorious for ignoring any Anglo teacher’s requests, even when made in person in front of everyone during meetings. His review score was the same as another Anglo teacher they wanted to fire so he is now worried.
It has been his pattern in life to get jobs, work in them for a while only to find his bosses:
a) make unreasonable demands which they refuse to equip him to meet
b) get into an almost jealous tangle about wanting all his free time so he has less and less for his family or himself
c) tell him one thing but expect another.
This teaching job is no better. :::sigh::: Last week was his review.
Last week I had to call our landlord’s rep and tell him the toilet STILL plugs up with regularity with normal use which means the repair the owner paid for didn’t work (which was what the plumber said would happen but the owner didn’t want to have to pay for the additional work). He has not called back and it has been a week.
Last week my dad was in the hospital for fluid build up; he has congestive heart failure and has to have the fluid drained every so often but this time they did very little and sent him home instead of keeping him a few days to be sure all the fluid was gone. Now he has to go back this week because he is still short of breath.
Moral of the story is; things from last week seem to have carried over into this week, unfinished.
The kids are all having a hard time sleeping at night this week. Defnitely weird energy right now. They tell me I seem to be talking about disparate things which they say makes me sound ADD (two of them are but I am not). Weird. My thoughts are going fast and connected and scattered all at once. Hence this post.
big hands up here with a stadium wave….!
from tech glitches, malfunctions, mobility issues, deteriorating relationships and the weird cosmic thing known as “youonlythoughtyouweregoingtogetsomethingaccomplishedtoday” this has been a strange couple of weeks. thanks pw for illuminating the ‘crunchiness’ of the times and giving us a sense that we aren’t alone under this ongoing sky story
much love to all
Thank you Planet Waves Daily Astrology for emulating the Aries Sun in applying concise, yet very well expressed portrayal of Eris. Thank you also for yet another seamless segue from yesterday’s Martian theme to today’s exploration of the Martian sibling. Just amazing.
And strangely enough, having written that, a few nights ago I dreamed I floored a boss robot with lasers that were shooting out of my hands. I often dream of being in a video game, but this time my fire-power was quite impressive. Freud would have something to say about that. 😉
yep — tech glitches and weird miscommunication and odd thinking and travel issues, etc all over the place. 🙂 ah well. i guess i’ll jus try to chill out while mars stations, see what my inner eris has to say, and then see where that puts me.
that is, *if* i can stop leaping into “old emotional reaction/jealousy mode” long enough to chill and listen….
Yes, yes, and yes. There are frustrations and delays, traffic snarl-ups, things ‘coming at me’ from the outside world, and a tail-twitching aggro that flares into anger spikes inside me — obviously the outside and inside worlds are mirroring each other in that respect. My relationship is breaking down (or is that up?), things are disintegrating around me, and yet there seems to be an order to the chaos, so I’m trying to step back rather than engage with anything too much.
The time to re-engage will present itself, I feel that, but for now it’s like I’ve destroyed the boss robot at the end of a gaming level, and the only thing to do is to take cover while the detritus flies everywhere.
Both hands up here, Amanda. Instead of a raised hand, it’s more like “raised” paws, claws extended and hanging onto the screen door ala Garfield, as I feel the air moving when the door slams.
Printer paper jam; used “canned air” to clear the paper dust in the printer after ripping out the paper and scraping my knuckles; “canned air” set off the gas/monoxide detector at 5:30 in the morning, screeching loud enough to wake the neighbors I’m sure; and then blow dryer retractable cord woudn’t “untract.” That was Easter Sunday morning. DVR “loads” disc and then flashes “No Disc.” I’m going to resist turning on anything else electronic unless absolutely necessary.
Yes to the weird, edgy energy – I’m exhausted still. Joint pain in the hips and knees. Work is hollering at me to get done. Hah! All I want to do is sleep and read astrology. Now, if I could just find my notes from last week…
JannKinz
ok, raise your hand if you feel like the last week or so has had way more mercury rx-type incidents than the actual rx…
between that and a sense of mars-stationing limbo, and the weekend tarot reading i keep thinking about, this week does feel a little edgy in a weird way.
Well. Has the energy changed for anyone else out there, since yesterday? Feels as through the wheel has stopped and there I am, at the top, in a swinging basket with no ice cream.
Thanks PW team for “Who is the outlier in me?” I like the geology definition: a part of a formation left detached through the removal of surrounding parts, by erosion. Hokay.