As you may have read in today’s daily astrology post, we have Mars starting to heat up. It’s joined the cardinal cross (Uranus in Aries, Saturn in Libra, and Pluto in Capricorn), which together are the core of the 2012 alignment. Cancer is filling in the missing leg of a T-square, creating a grand square aspect — all four of the cardinal signs with planets in a close aspect structure. So we are getting the full activation of the 2012 phenomenon — and I’m not saying this due to astrology alone, but rather based on what anyone can witness.
Notice what is happening in the world. After a month of political brinksmanship and what amounted to taking the federal government hostage, the United States was pushed to within hours of defaulting on its debts. Friday, its credit rating was lowered by Standard & Poor’s — which gives credit scores to large entities. This has led to a dive in the stock market, currently underway, erasing more than a year of gains. We don’t really know the truth about how bad the U.S. federal deficit is — most of it is hidden behind the books of the Federal Reserve Bank, a private bank that prints our money and gives cheap loans to banks and other massive institutions. I have heard that the hole in the FRB’s books is as high as $250 trillion. If anything close to that is true, the $14 trillion federal debt is a drop in the ocean and little more than a distraction — but either way, we have some accounting to do.
Meanwhile in London, the streets are on fire with rage. People are wondering what the anarchy’s all about, and I would say that shit rolls downhill. Every time I see a photo of the London riots, I think of another photo I saw of UK Prime Minister David Cameron hanging out on vacation with former News Corps CEO Rebekah Brooks. There is anarchy in the top levels of society, with our supposed leaders running rogue, doing what they please with no accountability to the people who pay their salaries.
Speaking of — in Wisconsin today, voters are in the process of dumping six Republican state senators who were involved in gutting union rights earlier in the year — actions which were behind weeks of massive protests in Madison and other cities. The governor created a fake fiscal crisis (much like we have in the federal government) and then took the opportunity to lay off teachers and nurses to impress their wealthy campaign donors.
This is a glimpse inside the window of 2012 astrology. While the first exact square of Uranus and Pluto isn’t until June 2012, both planets are now being activated by Mars, which is very close to the real thing. Behold the world.
“about running off to live with some polyamorist sex guru in the hills.”
The poly-amorous sex part sounds good but not the running off and guru parts. :::grin:::
The reason for getting a Master’s degree is that it makes my income generating potential better and it buys time…for my son to get old enough to need less supervision for his schooling.
Amanda,
Part of my “calling” is being a full-time mother and part of it is teaching what I know (sharing knowledge) about relationships, sexuality and life; especially sexuality. It is that sharing part that can be problematic. I cannot seem to figure out whether to write it down or set up workshops in which I have a conversation with, say 20, people. Problem is, doing either means building up income slowly; too slowly. Not to mention I live in a small town and my husband teaches elementary school; I cannot afford to be known as the resident Dr. Ruth Westheimer (sexuality adviser) because it could reflect negatively on his job prospects. Going farther out takes me away from the kids.
Yet I keep hearing people around me say that they want to hear (or read) what I have to say. I just open up my mouth and they seem to want to listen. I mean it is an almost weekly thing for someone out of the blue to tell me that. People at the store, people at the library, people in homeschool groups, people at 4H, people at the sewing shop, at the credit union, I mean I feel like the universe is telling me to do it. These are not friends, these are just people I run into that in the course of talking, I impart something I know and they tell me I should write a column or book or give seminars. And I would LOVE to be able to write a column but trouble is, I don’t know where I got most of this information from (can’t cite my sources) and every time I write about these things, someone inevitably calls me out for sources. When speaking, they don’t call me out (maybe they don’t like confrontation in a face-to-face venue) so maybe speaking about it is better.
Writing a column is scary because what if I can’t come up with that week’s subject because the kids needed me or someone fell and had to go to the doctor or my dad gives me grief? I won’t get paid. No one is willing to let me write about this stuff when I CAN; while making my kids the priority. I understand that; they need to make a living too. I wish there were some way to make it all work but the two callings I have don’t seem compatible. Either my kids lose, I lose, or my employer loses. And creating my own business is terrifying because of the income issues and the time issues so starting my own seminars or website blog doesn’t sound feasible.
I have NO idea how to do it. Trying to write a column is problematic; every time I submit stuff to people they never comment back so I have to assume they don’t like it. Yet others tell me what I write is important and relevant. I don’t know how to even go about starting it even if I did have the time and enough income (via my husband’s job) to do it. Same goes for the seminar/conversations idea. How to fit them in and keep up with my family and do them in a safe place, etc, etc. So I am stuck. I am doing one part of my calling (the mothering part) but not the other part.
So Here I am, at a quandary as to what to do about that part of my calling. Maybe I have to do them one after another which would mean I need to wait on the second half until my son is grown; another 9 years. :::sigh::: Problem is, I am feeling those hands on my back to do it NOW.
Like many planets when they transit the Solstice points, Mars is currently “out of bounds” -which is to say beyond or outside the usual north or south measurement of the celestial equator within which the Sun passes.
A planet conjunct the other solstice point (Capricorn) and thus near the Galactic Center is also “out of bounds”, that is, it has a declination greater than the maximum Sun declination (23°27´).
Out of bounds planets often behave just as the term suggests, with no sense of boundaries or balance. When its Mars, well, things can burn
carrie, i do get all that. i’m curious though — what exactly *is* your calling, that pursuing it in any way would completely upset everything and take you far away and is not in line with your master’s degree? is there any way to live aspects of it/flavors of it, to bring some of it into your current life?
obviously, i have no idea, since i don’t actually know what you’re referring to — but i’m assuming you’re not talking about running off to live with some polyamorist sex guru in the hills. 🙂
believe me, i’m not someone who thinks “living your dream” is easy — it’s a struggle for me to even envision mine, to figure out what i truly want in some regards, let alone live it. but living out an energy, a vibration…. still sometimes a challenge, but for me has been far more doable, at least in moments and the right contexts. i think there can be a certain sense of “living a mission” in daily interactions.
i’m not sure if it’s “the same” or as “authentic” as a complete 180-degree personal revolution. but i like to think it’s not so far off, either, and may and up being cumulative.
Amanda,
No judgment taken. :::smiling::: In regards to your comment and question; in this situation it is a matter of choices I have made….and time. I chose to have kids. I choose to homeschool my son because of the issues we have in our public schools; he does way better at home. I also have three young women in my home (2 are 18 and one is 16) who are starting college this month; none of them can drive, neither their father nor I have the time to teach them, classes to teach them are expensive ($350 each person) and run at times which are at odds with their college schedule, and the bus service here is lamentable and less affordable. That leaves me being taxi. I am also finishing up my online degree at the university because I couldn’t find a decent paying job (having been out of the work force for many years and with the cheap student labor here) much less one that allows me the flexibility staying home does. The student loans pay the bills that my husband’s salary cannot. The piece of paper I will receive also confers me the respectability I need to be listened to when I do embark on the calling I keep feeling. So with five classes of my own, the house to run (yes the girls and boy do help with chores but not with the running, scheduling, bill-paying, menu planning, budgeting, appointment setting etc), three girls to taxi and one boy to educate, I have little time for much else. When school starts Aug 29th, my posting here will drop like a stone as will my own blog posts. Time is my enemy. If I were to suddenly decide to do my calling, this would upset the cart badly because it would take away the income the student loans are giving (I do plan to get my Master’s degree), it would take me away for who-knows how much time, and would cut into my ability to be all the things I am now to everyone else. Logistics, time, financial need, all play a part in keeping me away from that calling.
Then there’s the issue of the girls getting jobs. If they do manage to find jobs in this small town and low-job-availability, these jobs will not offer health coverage and it will bring in income which would knock their little brother and the rest of us off medicaid. The system is set up so that if they work, their income is counted despite their being over 18 and it would stop their brother from having health care. What nice choices, eh? Their combined part-time salaries (there’s just no full time work out there in this college town) won’t be enough to offset the loss in health benefits they would incur.
I love it when people say “follow your dream” but forget that kids need fed, need healthcare, need shoes, need a roof over their heads. In my classes, I read over and over that the biggest single indicator that a person may fall into poverty (and that includes marrieds with two incomes) is if they have children. Having children in this country is a liability because it is not supported, despite the “pro-family” GOP rhetoric.
So my dream is on hold because no one values what I have to say (or share) enough to pay me to say or share it to the point that I can afford to “follow my calling.”
The above only describes the practical impacts from me doing my calling. The emotional considerations are important as well. While I can say the adults in the family are responsible for their own feelings, I cannot drag children through things and tell them “deal with it” as though they are adults. Kids are not as flexible and resilient as we have all been led to believe (I know this from not only reading studies but from first-hand experience seeing adults still scarred by that kind of stuff). I have seen the end result of parents doing their calling with no thought for their children and it isn’t always positive. With no idea as to which of my children would be flexible enough, I cannot subject them to upheavals to that magnitude when I can surely wait until they are grown to initiate my joy.
Those are the sacrifices I am speaking of. I cannot allow my kids to maybe go without health care or go hungry or suffer not having enough of their mother’s attention (and yes, that IS as important as food) in order to do what I am feeling compelled to do. I chose to have these kids and with that comes the responsibility to do what they need because their needs come first. Why? Because I am the adult and can delay gratification, they are kids and haven’t yet mastered that.
Does that all make sense? :::smiling:::: Hence my frustration.
Sorry to write a book. I suppose I could have taken this to e-mail. :::sheepish grin::::
Ok I was thinking of you astroE last night when I was watching this because of the upcoming alignments mentioned.
http://www.vimeo.com/27240681
I thought it was a good summary/primer that sort of triangulates a few perspectives and happenings that I’ve studied (as many of you have) for years. Though I personally do not resonate with some of the possibilities explored, I wholeheartedly agree with the understanding of prophecy as potentiality (and forewarning) versus “fact”.
We can choose, to behold the world, and think*make*say*do*live*love*be, different.
♥☮♫
Eric, “impeccable consistency needs to be about attention and awareness”…yes, this is what it’s about and I’m glad you offered your thoughts. In my own non-linear way this was what I understood Phil to say.
Another monumental event that happened today was the sentencing of Warren Jeffs. I’m wondering how all of this energy had an affect on his ‘being brought to justice’. So often, people such as Mr. Jeffs, have hidden under the veil of religious freedom in this country and part of me is concerned that Supreme Court will allow this man to continue to pervert (no pun intended) this freedom by overturning the sentence. It seems to me, that for all of the good and fairness our laws try to convey to the masses, there is a good deal of common sense lacking in the interpretation. Or maybe lady justice is not just blind, but has been stricken dumb, too.
It also bring another thought to mind, with the situation in the UK at a full-on boil, I wonder just how fed up the average, low to middle class American is with the senseless, manipulative antics of the suits on the hill as they use their so-called power for their own self-serving agendas? It’s unfortunate that it takes such a destructive type of uprising to unwrap a part of the truth for all to see, but I suppose for those that feel their voices are not being heard decide that they can at least be seen. Fear, anger, and feeling helpless and ignored is such a volatile mix. I wonder if before long, groups of Americans will choose to be seen because they are tired of not being heard? In a year from now, will all of those pictures of buildings burning down on the streets of London become pictures of streets in Phoenix, or DC, or Detriot?
Who knows. All I know is that I have been feeling this energy for a while in my own life and it has been like a spark to dry tinder…it’s been a bit rough, but I can’t say it hasn’t been beneficial.
The only problem with impeccable consistency is that we also need to leave room for our ideas and desires to evolve. so that impeccable consistency needs to be about attention and awareness, and even then, there are things we hear when listening passively that we don’t hear when listening with high focus. So I suggest you go gently on the consistency part. One of the big issues we face as a social conditioning factor is the quality of intractability.
hey carrie, just a question that comes up for me sometimes when i read your comments: why must your living your joy/energy/purpose/higher vibration necessarily be a harm to your family or sacrifice them?
granted, i don’t know all the specifics of your situation or the feeling you’re describing. and lord knows i haven’t figured out my own mission-vs-family issues. but it seems to me that if you’re talking about living from a place of joy, that may be initially disruptive to those close to you, but are their feelings about it necessarily your responsibility? and might they adapt and grow in amazing leaps and bounds in response?
just wondering. i know kids do not have all the same tools or framing at their immediate disposal, but then neither do lots of adults. i’m just wondering if there’s an opening for living this truth/vibration you have in a way that lets you be a shining example for those you love, still with your support & involvement perhaps.
no judgment here, just wondering out loud……..
…Mars starting to heat up…ain’t that the truth!
Eric, I offer up a quote from friend Phil Sedgwick back in 2009. Felt it was applicable to the times we are in:
” Know your bottom line. Establish what is worth it and what is not. Speak your truth and spirituality with untractable resolve, allowing for differing views to hold their place. Fortify your spirit such that you are not shaken from your foundation by social pressure or economic uncertainly. Fight no battle that has no merit. Display impeccable consistency in your consciousness. Be motivated by passion for your causes. Take time for renewal. Feed your creativity. Be your own model of excellence, emulate nothing that is not exceptional. Work to create a life worth living, by carrying what you value and honour close to your heart.
Starry,
Oh Holotropic Breathwork is a great way to do it …BUT it has a lasting effect that can make you feel very out of sorts for DAYS. Just be ready for that in case it affects you that way. I felt like an alien in my own skin for at least a week after doing HB. Oddly enough, the only other time I felt that way was when I had accidentally ingested someone’s acid blotter (or maybe they intentionally put it in my food, I have never been sure on that). The only difference was the acid made me feel like an alien in my own skin in a rather displaced, emotionless way whereas the HB made me feel alien but in a fully present, emotionally connected sense.
Beautifully said, Carrie. I’m right there with you. Thinking about doing holiotropic breath work Sat. To maybe help discharge all this passion?
Listening to:
http://www.youtubeloop.com/autoplaylist/eSPVsWpyV18#s=0&e=217
Yes….behold the world and our place in it. I don’t know about anyone else, but this Mars today is making me feel so much. I can hardly contain it; I just feel and feel and feel. I want to heal the world, dance with joy, cry in deepest sadness, share my soul. This energy is almost too much to carry. There is no rage in it, only a deep welling up of feeling; a desire to connect but with what I do not know. It feels restless, an inner vibrating that won’t slow down. All the longing of the soul is pushing up and spilling over. Yet in all this, there is a deep alone-ness, a feeling of being all alone as well. I feel the longing for a place, a home, a people a purpose.
:::sigh::: The waves of feeling are crashing over me and I don’t know where to put them or what to do with them. I want to DO so much but have no idea of how to go about it without “sacrificing” my family in the process. I refuse to believe that that kind of sacrifice is necessary; there has to be a way to do what I feel I must without harming others whom I love deeply.
I want to hold the world gently in my hands and breathe the breath of sanity and healing onto it. I feel energy rising up within me from my feet (planted firmly on the earth) to exit my tingling fingertips. I feel a primeval cry rising but I cannot utter it because of where I am. I feel a huge power within me but no place to direct it.
I want to dance the creation dance and weave a spell of love and light. Who am I? What am I? I am the vessel the light pours from; gasping and struggling to free it and direct it.
Yet my rational mind asks, “Are these feelings real…or just an illusion?” ::::sigh:::
When these feelings grip me, it is very difficult to function in my everyday life; the mundane tasks of life seem intrusive. And though I am perfectly wired for the intensity of these feelings, no one else around me is so they become uncomfortable and I feel their discomfort which in turn dampens me more.
For what purpose was I created to experience these deep and intense feelings if they only serve to cause disruption in my daily tasks and discomfort for the others around me? I don’t know the answers to all these questions, I can only feel and feel and ride the dragon until it stops.
Most of all, I feel alone for who can I share these feelings with? Who can go where I go, feel what I feel, experience what I experience? Ultimately we are each alone in our being. That feeling of being alone is the slow and painful leak from this wonderful balloon of feeling. I am not exactly sad…just lonely, feeling, and vibrating like mad.
:::deeper sigh::::
Sorry to rant. Please disregard if this is intrusive to the comments.