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  1. Keeping On

    Sometimes keeping going is the only thing to do.
    Just put one foot in front of the other
    Even when all you want to do is

    STOP

    And jet off, uncoiling this mortal coil, snapping the cord
    That holds you here on this
    Terrestrial ball
    Especially when you’re not having
    Much of a ball.

    Sometimes I have felt myself leaving
    When I look up
    At the stars or sun and moon.
    After all, I have been there before
    Looking out over the backside
    Of the moon at Orion.

    It’s nice up there.

    Still something keeps telling me “No, not yet—
    There is much left to do and have
    And let go of,
    So it will be awhile.

    But when I learn to make each day
    One long song of Praise,
    When doing what I don’t like to do is
    Sacred

    Even if it’s nothing but lying flat on my back
    Staring at that ceiling in that nursing home
    Making a complete Heaven of boredom
    Finding God in smaller
    And smaller things

    Till this body becomes translucent with age
    And evaporates into
    Living through my death and death
    And deaths after death.

    Besides. The more of me that dies
    The clearer my sight becomes
    And beauties I never saw before I see now,
    Like the soft-shelled turtle a foot wide
    That lives in the ditch,
    Or the coyote crossing the road at dusk,
    That sandy haired trickster,
    Moving like Baryshnikov,
    Or the colors in the clouds.

    When I could leave, I wasn’t grounded
    But neither was I finished being made
    And now I know I’ll never be finished

    So, “No,” I say to myself
    When I’m really down and out and
    I want to leave.
    “Not yet.”

    Let’s just see what’s left,
    What’s left waiting to be born
    Out of this piece of death
    This peace of death

    Till the last breath whispers “Now,”
    And I am ready to go
    Birthed into death
    And gone home to my love.

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