Dear Friend and Leader:
The Moon is in early Aquarius, about to cross Rahu, the mean North Node (it crossed the True Node earlier this morning).This is a busy day for the Moon, as it will oppose the asteroid Pallas, square Venus and Mars and sextile Pholus, before moving on overnight Friday to make a conjunction to the Jupier-Chiron-Neptune conjunction.
Squares from the Moon to Venus call on us to get our emotional needs met in straightforward ways, rather than the usual scandals.
From Aquarius to Taurus, we have one of those classic setups between ‘freedom’ and ‘stability’ or between openness and possessiveness or between monogamy and polyamory, or between independence and bonding, or friends and lovers, as you choose to look at it (and there are other ways, too). The meaningful bit here is that there is no one right way to share or exchange within emotional or sexual relationships.
If there is one wrong way, it is to make any one way allegedly compulsory. Nobody really listens, and the result is a lot of anguish and the temptation, mainly, to be dishonest. There’s also a necessary indulgence in guilt as a form of pleasure under this model, as guilt is the inevitable result of rule-breaches and transgressions, oft including mental ones.
There is a better way to do things.
I happen to be born with this square; an Aquarius Moon square Venus in Taurus. I’ve you’ve ever wondered just why it is that I’m so…normal, here’s one theory.
My life often feels like an invention process to resolve the various puzzles of this square: the stability and need for deep embrace of Venus in Taurus; coupled with my authentic need to be my own person, to be emotionally free and inherently social as a fact of my close relating to others. Venus in Taurus has a touch of the traditional. Moon in Aquarius offers the original; it seeks groups; it has a tendency to sulk if it’s mind is not engaged constructively.
Details from my chart are: the Moon is in the 8th conjunct Vesta. Venus is in the 11th conjunct Photographica, an asteroid. Yes, astrology can be that ridiculously expressive of one’s life.
One way it shakes out is: I’m personally too liberated to be very comfortable around the ‘pair bonding or death’ mentality; and at the same time I need bonding closer than seems generally available among those who practice the forms of liberation I’ve encountered. I am aware that a lot of people in various poly movements are working out this same paradox. It would make an interesting series of interviews to see how some of these people apply themselves to the situation.
Both the Moon and Venus contain a piece of their opposites in these signs. For example, the Aquarius Moon is in a sign ruled by Saturn; it wants some structure at the same time it needs independence. Venus in Taurus is the ruler of her sign. She needs comfort, bonding, and familiarity — but needs to be free to make her own choices all the time, and to express her devotion her own way. Evangeline Adams described this Venus (in the 1930s) as having a reputation for being promiscuous, you know, a bit of a libertine, until she finds exactly what she wants.
Venus in Taurus wants to feel, to be in the senses, to embrace physically and emotionally. The Moon in Aquarius wants something that works for everyone, and knows that humans are inherently free no matter what our temporary needs may be; there must (it knows) be a way to reconcile freedom with having our needs met in a stable way that is emotionally responsible. An inventor, it cares not that most people pretend to have given up on this theme.
The square to Mars, which happens around 9 tonight in the Eastern zone, is to say: if the frustration of the seeming paradoxes of an Aquarius Moon square Venus in Taurus start to get annoying, respond with pasison rather than with anger; or at least be honest about the anger and move onto passion. Pallas Athene is in the mix. Remember your negotiation skills.
Yours & truly,
Taurus and Aqueerius, for me they are Sun in the 8th and Mars in the 5th house. I think I can relate to what you describe Eric, somehow recognize the themes. My moon helps them to get all fired up sometimes, Leo in the 11th. Bonding and freedom. I have learned that taboo-issues for others are to me absolutely not taboo and exciting because freedom-loving and out-of-box-explorings. I have to explore my reaction on ‘the skill set’ though. My immediate reaction was WHY? Although I absolutely know that you have to be careful in relating as much as in sex -in fact the same aren’t they?- I have this cry inside. Why? Isn’t relating learning and getting skilled? Exploring in love and intimacy is most of the time diving into the unknown, sometimes even not knowing why you do it but you do it anyhow, because it feels you have to, because you want to share the love in a sometimes conscious and sometimes unconscious way with someone or someones. Skill set…being prepared? I guess I am never ready, never prepared enough to be skilled. To me skill set sounds better if I describe it as thinking with my heart.
What you said: ‘It’s possible to learn using a combination of imagination and selfpleasuring instead of “opening up the relationship.’ Perhaps I don’t get what you mean (I am dutch and the english you guys are using I find sometimes not that easy to understand, especially in the underlying meanings) but isn’t using a combination of imagination and selfpleasuring the real opening up to a relationship, whether it is with ourselves or expressing it with others?
Being scrupulously honest: my sun would love to follow the way mars is trying to drive me at (and sometimes, sometimes it happens), my venus is conjunct MC, so I certainly must get there don’t you think?! But this sun at the same time fears this drive. So my sex-life in reality is nothing compared to what I love in my mind to get. Fantasy oh yeah, sharing fantasy even: great, getting skilled with that one too! But actually practising it? By far not enough!
Heleen
Hi Mystes,
This one hadn’t a left/right feel to it – although the left/right ‘thing’ does come up often with me including some very interesting visions of my “guides” – and placement of where their energy is in relationship to me.
I myself am ‘NLP dislexic’ (Neuro-linguistic programming). That is, for example, my eyes look the opposite way for lying or creating than the directions NLP suggests we all respond.
So, my personal interpretations of left/right tend not to lean toward traditional definitions but rather toward a generic sense of seeking of balance or twin energy of some sort. I did not get “twin energy” on the Releasing death/wedding dream — although I’m interested what the symbolism of the “wedding preparation” – it was distictivly NOT “marriage” – but “wedding preparation”.
I didn’t mention that there was a military guard next to the coffin – very masculine, very dramaticly different than the overtly feminine wedding prep. The military guard was no longer visible when the coffin disappeared – but their presence was still felt even as the children appeared and began to play.
xo
Oh, yum. May I please please please schedule a threesome with you two? Jlo with his unbridled mind, and holoWitte for his cultured and incisive one?
Pencil me in. Use ink.
M
*jlo* ‘Whole entire’ cosmos… ‘same exact’ time
Superfluous rendered indispensable
Planets. Like poetry. In motion *jlo*
Word, how does it get any better than that?, “..laughing and playing..”? Beautiful!!
Witte, They’re ALL preschoolers. (Cool in the COSMIC sense) I have seen the dude! with the !MOST! solar rotations!
“Hybrissing around, HOT mother fucker!”
Not to make light and all but, I’ve been experiencing these feelings for days (a long fucking time) now. These feelings are the sensations of the planets in action.
The whole entire Cosmos is speaking at the same exact time.
Song of the Spheres eh,
Always. Enjoy. The Music.
Linda…”group of girlfriends were preparing for a wedding when I noticed on other side of the room lay a closed coffin; realizing I was remiss at not acknowledging Death”
Nice, round, bright – goes down smoothly with a good finish. 90 points on the dreamwine scale.
So…. does this continue the left (vama) / right (diksha) dream?
Left handed practices are life-handed. Right-handed have more to do with control (which ostensibly protects from death, but inevitably takes us ‘right’ to it).
Keep ’em dreamin’…
!
m
And the poignant moment in last night’s Dream: group of girlfriends were preparing for a wedding when I noticed on other side of the room lay a closed coffin; realizing I was remiss at not acknowledging Death, I kneeled at it’s side and prayed. Upon crossing myself and rising, the coffin was instantly gone – replaced by a group of young children laughing and playing. The wedding preparations continued.
xo
I hear you mystes.. now if only I could get a game in *play*, where I wasn’t the coach, demonstrating to the pre-schoolers what baseball’s all about >
Uhh… I might be a little Nirvana-drunk.
I wrote the previous post under the influence of “Lounge Act”::
“Don’t – tell me what I wanna hear
Afraid of never knowing fear
Experience anything you need
I’ll keep fighting jealousy
’til it’s fucking gone
“And I’ve got this friend, you see
Who makes me feel and I
Wanted more than I could steal
I’ll arrest myself, I’ll wear a shield
I’ll go outta my way to prove I still
Smell her on you. . .”
HdW… “When you give to another, some receive and others take.”
Ummm, whether one is taken or received has to do with how you ‘give.’ I hate to be such an American, but think baseball. A grounder gets you an infield catch, maybe first base. Pitch that sucker hard and high, and someone is going to be running to the fence line, someone else is going to make it home.
Home = Awake.
Given what’s possible there, why even *have* sex if you’re lowballing? once you’ve gotten a taste of the Really Wild Game, all the rest is shadow.
So here,
M
Yes Eric, I am entirely in agreement with that understanding of the current state of affairs.
On this vexed point of de-skilling there is something about what modern people have lost in the mix.
We have ‘developed’ an inability to be able to grasp the shade of where others are at, if you like an intuitive knack. Consequently there is core level confusion that leads many into a void of untrustingness (of their very self). Then the trust ‘requirement’ (a fable) is projected onto the love object as necessitating some sort of guarantee (which is simply never attainable).. And so we continue, perpetually disillusioned
We need to deconstruct the myth of ‘trust’ just like another of its bedfellows ‘truth’ which Foucault deconstructed along Nietzschean lines as a species of the ‘will to power’ that was masquerading as self-evidently valid because it was ‘truth’. I must learn to trust myself, my feelings, my values, my passion, my doubts etc and so I could go on. Once trust is no longer required in the relationship it is because I have learned fully to trust myself. THAT is the project, as I see it.
Until people understand plainly that it is not simply permissible, but necessary, to do so I worry that we will see insufficient progress – people having been so successfully *ideologised*
The journey is, as you rightly infer, inward first, all the way to the core and then, well.. maybe there is hope and life. Sing it, comrade.
Whole Witte, Yes. Part of this compersion idea I’m putting out (see my replies in Mystes posts) is about mitigating that risk. Not removing it, but putting it into scale.
One of the cultural problems we have now is about not really knowing how to take conscious risks; or how to size up those risks; and so on. It’s also risky to be very very horny, get drunk and go home with someone whose name you don’t remember in the morning. There is risk in everything and that needs to be stated loud and clear.
That’s really a statement about the necessity of risk. Most people are too freaked out to even speak…many won’t even meet in person…state their fears…state their needs…have the STD/pregnancy conversation…we are being DESKILLED.
Part of what we need to build is, specifically, a skill set around relating. This sounds all kinds of radical: saying, “So what do you expect?” “What’s the plan if we get pregnant?” “When was your last round of tests?” “Do you use condoms consistently?” “What can I do for you?” “May I sniff your breasts?”
Hey Eric, that was quick!
Here is my distinction and I make it for those less well re-built than either you or I, in their broken down places:
When you give to another, some receive and others take. This is a parable of life itself, not simply sexual interactions. Arguably, vulnerability is magnified when we get naked. We must know whether our gifts will be taken or received.
It would be a dereliction of self-protection to suggest otherwise. What one person may be aware of, another may not yet have grasped – as with all awareness issues across the human spectrum. Sexual daring is not for the faint hearted and should at least carry some sort of caveats!
Half De Witte,
Cheaply implies that there is a price. So what is the price? Do you give yourself away expensively? Giving and cheaply are different concepts; since one is about sharing and one is about selling. I say don’t sell yourself at all — share yourself with whom you feel like sharing.
There is a considerable problem here with the question of ‘values’ – we only ever experience our own in ways not necessarily mediated through behaviour. Which is to say that it is impossible to conduct relationships through value-filters. Still, understandably, that is what people try to do. They justify the continued attempts (if they are sensitive, reflective souls), by citing ‘new, improved’ conduits to the intra-personal flow envisaged.
Sadly, we just so rarely know how fucked up other people are, whether in their ‘sexuated’ self or in its bifurcated alter ego. The quest to heal this rift is at once, personal and social. However, if we offer something to another/others, there is absolutely no sense that this modelling will draw something authentic from them, for it may birth some of their karmic ‘darkside’. Do you want to be your lover(s)’ therapist?
Think on that..
The question is absolutely less one of values (which has marginal importance and arguably may decoy us from weightier matters) and more one of a vetted peer community. For me, this means i) developing increased comfort in talking about sex with people we admire in both general terms and sexual terms ii) assessing our potential peers’ dysphoric tendencies (are they comfortable with their own bodies and sexual potentialities?) and iii) predicated upon both i) and ii) easing our way gently and openly toward intimate exchanges, based upon the thorough foundations laid. Not moralising, but testing.
Do NOT give your hard earned, sexual self, away cheaply.
I try to avoid superlatives, but I speak from experience here. I mean something very specific: which is that using shared/witnessed masturbation as the means for exploring compersion, we avoid having to do it in the context of one’s lover fucking someone else or falling in love with them. Sure, maybe there are ‘easier’ ways but I am talking about exploring the essence of compersion without invoking heavy abandonment or loss of faith issues with one’s partner. It’s possible to learn using a combination of imagination and selfpleasuring instead of “opening up the relationship.”
Regardless of whether anyone ‘agrees’ or not – am I making the idea clear?
Eric: that was interesting to read about your moon/venus square. I’ve got aqu. taur. like that with Mars in Taurus in 7th square Venus retro in Aquarius in 4th with 8th house moon in Gemini. Libra rising with Uranus in 1st house, cap sun/merc 3rd house. Well the short of it is that what I’ve had for the past 8 years or so is a lot of “sisters” and no sex partners. I guess it’s taking awhile for me to integrate that Mars. C’est la vie.
Yes to form following function, moving beyond relationship models is *exactly* right for the praxis side of this; but there is still the process of communicating one’s findings to those trapped inside of mono (emphasis on “no”) gamy. Trapped and longing to move through it, but buried under the shame/guilt/fear/craving machine. It’s too easy to disown what you want based on the so-called ‘morality’ (concern for other’s well-being) of that form. New models provide some reassurance that elements like clarity, intelligence, generosity, loyalty have a home inside of outrageous and expansive bliss.
Models can be felt through, too, E – and in fact always *were* felt through, truth to tell.
Rub tummy, pat head.
EF declares: “This is the easiest way to learn compersion…”
(Mysti inserts low whistle here…)
Do I see a superlative here? Even ‘easy,’ much less ‘easiest’ gives me pause. But in light of the rank failures of other experiments (I’ve participated in a few), I joyfully witness that your process is certainly thundering along. May it be easiest and soon.
Compersion – enjoying the other’s (others’) pleasure – is a true milestone. I guess I’m working a little to the left of that…
Compersion/compassion. Relatives, but not twins.
e on the wall again — compersion is a neologism. Compassion is a “traditional word.” Compassion has the root pathos, as does passion. Compersion is like having compassion for the person, or compassion that goes through to the person at the core. Compersion is not yet in OED despite being in use for about 35 years. Below the etymology is a definition from am old sex dictionary that I did in 1999 or so.
Per as “through”
http://www.english-for-students.com/per.html
Per as person; poss from persephone
http://www.etymonline.com/index.php?term=person
Per also means ‘one’ … though I am having trouble tracking down examples of that root. But: two per – cent = two individuals “per” hundred
Compersion. Usually defined as the opposite of jealousy. This is the love you feel when others feel love; the pleasure you feel when others feel pleasure. It is what fills the space that is left by jealousy, but not strictly its opposite. To illustrate, imagine you are a man and see your female lover embrace another man she loves dearly. The sense of pleasure you felt at the experience of their love could be called compersion. It often extends into openly sexual feelings, including sexual arousal at the thought or experience of other people sharing sexual pleasure. I would expand the concept to include the love you would feel while watching another person in a state of selflove; in other words, sharing masturbation seems to be a good fit for a compersion experience, and an easily available one to experiment with. The word and, more importantly, the idea of ‘compersion’, were developed in the Kerista community living experiment in San Francisco’s Haight District during the 1970s, though Kerista’s roots go back some years prior to the Beat Generation. The Keristans, according to Ryam Nearing at Loving More, ‘Believed it was important to have a word for this emotion, so people could talk about it more easily and even realize it was possible to feel this way’.
Part of what we can do about it, I’ve covered here. This is the easiest way to learn compersion; to learn to allow others the space to be who they are and to take the space of who we are; with a conversation available all the time; and which (most important) can function within established boundaries (such as monogamy).
http://bookofblue.com/txp/liberation-central
I think we need to move beyond relationship model as the issue and allow form to follow function. And I do mean function; my own manifestation is on creating a space that works.
PS to Audrey, via email: Yes, I think that expanded models of sex are just as sexy. We need to have an option other than the possess/possessed/guilt/scandal drama being the only thing we know about that can turn us on. We are accustomed to having our relationships in a clearing at best and in a cage at worst. I think we need to explore the forest of human potential. We don’t know what it’s like till we get there.
Part of this process is being aware of when we’re doing what we’re supposed to do rather than what we want to do; and by “do” I mean say. For many people the challenge in relationship is to be able to feel and say what is authentic for us, and not be afraid of being on the street.
Yeah Eric…
” by clunky, I mean, Hello, we’re Nancy, Jake, Jeff, Mindy and Bill and we’re in an Open W relationship. ”
Thanks for the delimiter. So you are saying that this awkwardness is the Open/Closed propensity of polyamorists? Like: “we’re open, but full for now, check back later”?
That is how my youth’s poly household looked from the outside, but liberty was to be found if there was deliberate inquiry and appeal.
In my earlier comments I was generalizing about how any new relationship model is going to weird-out after it starts to develop a theory to go along with the exploratory praxis. But you know all of this, being the scion of a media-theorist. This is what did Tantra in (and in and in and in) after it left the circle of the Dames in Kashmir. About ummm, 1200 years ago.
The question is: what can we do about it now? I’m crawling around under the theory spaceship, screwdriver in hand. (poke-poke)
Don’t mind me (poke)
Just loosening a few things here (poke-poke)
Ahhhh, that’s better.
Zoooom.
M
e here again – – I think that part of why things in poly tribes are often clunky and often over reliant on structure and rules is a struggle with compersion; i.e., lack of trust, control issues, abandonment, and not really being able to let go into someone else’s love and pleasure. Therefore the usual response is to apply an exterior set of rules; or to take things underground. This is all about someone struggling to get their own needs met, fearing that the situation will not provide that – and often this is a true concern. Taken as rules, that’s a matter of form and not of content. I think that the content has to be about compersion. We need to be saying yes to and for one another, and receiving yes from one another (sometimes more difficult). Getting over the fear associated with this is easier than dragging the fear around or being its hostage. Nobody is happy wondering whether their partner is out late because of that, or is it because of that? And you have a lot of people who are dedicated to living a fairy tale (literally, girls are still read Cinderella at like age four as a rite of passage into passivity), whether it actually gives them what they want. It’s a nice story and who knows maybe it will be true.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_wGLZmwZ8o
Thank you for the clarification, Eric – although, again, that resonates with me!
Your experiences of polyamory are more varied, indepth and direct than mine, of that I’m certain. And my limited experience is really either of relationships of the more “clunky” variety (mainly through my parents’ friends), or those who practise open relationships where there is, in fact, little openness of communication; and where parameters are so strictly set around issues of secrecy that any frank discussion of emotions, sex and sexuality, desires and needs is completely off limits.
Well, that’s what I’ve come across so far … which is probably a reflection of where I’m at in all this. Baby steps!
🙂
S x
PS: Would have loved to join you for pizza, but a geographic impossibility!
fe. . .good to hear from you. How often does that happen – that your creative work “dies a sad and lonely death” ? Not often I bet. Appropriate that your present project is tactile and not so mental. Venus should like that a lot!
st. brigit. . .thanks for the book tip as I have a moon involved in a t-square with Pluto (which includes a double opposition!) and guarantees me at least one “bad” day a week, which lately has been Thursday. So far, so good.
Good morning…
This. . .”To me that translates to a social network that exists, where the primary value is honesty (vis., emotional, intellectual, sexual), and where there is freedom to converse, mutual support of individual choices and a collective energy of compersion rather than competition. ”
. . . is the result of first doing deep liberatory work on your own psyche, *then* looking around to see who resonates to it. Which is exactly what you are doing. That freedom most certainly is a spiritual issue, but it takes some refocusing to be able to sense where compersion can emit like a happy radio signal through sexual longing. (Don’t be looking for hints on the back of your cereal box, baby… it ain’t there.)
When you mention the ‘clunkiness’ of the polyamory model, I thought to myself “and it is ever thus when the social body is larger than 8 people.” Map and territory part company at about 8, and the rift grows and grows as ideas spread. It’s inevitable (both the distortion and the spread) – but I’m placing my bets that all of us can make some art out of that gap.
Back to it…
Love,
M
— Mysti, e here writing on your wall – by clunky, I mean, Hello, we’re Nancy, Jake, Jeff, Mindy and Bill and we’re in an Open W relationship.
I have spent a lot of time in, near, teaching in, etc., the poly movement — about 15 years and one thing I will say is: they have commitment, and they are generally a tribe that is deeply committed to their relationships and to the idea of better relationships. That is not the wrinkle for me. I know that we’ve all met neighborhood polys who seem like glorified flirts and it’s very important that we make a LOT of room in the world for them because lots of us ARE them and we will always want their company, sooner or later.
I am not sure how to frame the discussion of where my particular psyche does not quite fit the prevailing poly mindset, and it may come down to politics; the politics of the ‘movement’ and the politics of love. It may also be that I don’t feel particularly welcomed – on the level of lover, not of presenter or facilitator – by many in the poly movement; not certainly more than on Main Street. I will consider this in the context of my history and my own desires and get back to you. In my own life the ticklish spot for me may, finally, be about finding a primary partner who is actually open to my exploration. As I’m fond of describing, much of my experience of nonmonogamy has been holding space for women in my life to explore their freedom and still being available as their emotional and erotic partner. While plenty of women do seem to get it, and respect and honor the freedom of men, I have some subtle anxiety that I’m not going to find that in someone.
The difference may also come down to something we think of as spiritual; and I know that there are power issues relating to sex that are, generally speaking, unresolved in the poly community, which I am referencing above as ‘political’. One of the vast, unconsidered subtopcs of poly – or it may be the subject itself – involves the power differences that involve gender; that is, finding our way to a relative equality of the sexes, remembering that most of the inequities come back to power games that surround sex and money. Early pioneers of polyamory concerned themselves with the money issue, particularly at a place called Kerista.
I am also aware that this may come down to needing a relationship network wherein I can process my abandonment themes without feeling tossed around too much, or at all. I think that within my particular intimate network I need people who are versed in the language and process of therapy and who have made some real strides to self actualizing and raising their consciousness to a point where we can have mutually progressive and satisfying conversations. One major component of this thing we’re calling ‘polyamory’ is a new set of communication skills; consensus building skills; nonviolent communication skills; and enough life experience to go around.
Truth is when we step outside of conventional relationship boxes, which are in reality just a bunch of expectations that were handed to us by the past, supported by our fears, we are in new territory and we have two things that are troubling to many, which are freedom; and responsibility. We are not quite raised to be men and women enough to negotiate freedom. I think that it’s a child-bonding part of us that quickly rushes into the models of relationship that our parents gave us, no matter how different we are than what is permissible under those models.
The essence of the matter is that we honor one another’s right to choose. I don’t think we’re going to ‘go into polyamory’. I think we are rethinking relationships and feeling our way to a place of more space; which I recognize we don’t really have prefab words or concepts for. The poly movement has given us a bunch of those though I think their models are a little clunky too… The one that has meant the most to me over the years is the concept of an intimate network.
To me that translates to a social network that exists, where the primary value is honesty (vis., emotional, intellectual, sexual), and where there is freedom to converse, mutual support of individual choices and a collective energy of compersion rather than competition. This is about we, us, supporting one another in our desires, needs, and choices – outside of the morality dictates of conventional models, and rising above any personal sense of threat, so that our own fear does not hold people down.
It really is possible to get to this place, and I believe it’s possible to stabilize there.
Anyone want to go out for gluten free pizza in Worcester, Mass?
“I’m personally too liberated to be very comfortable around the вЂ?pair bonding or death’ mentality; and at the same time I need bonding closer than seems generally available among those who practice the forms of liberation I’ve encountered.”
Eric, I think you’ve just explained the thing that I grapple with when it comes to the idea of polyamory.
Often (not always), I get the impression that polyamory is simply a convenient way of escaping commitment … and not commitment to another, but to the self. It’s as if the psyche has pulled anchor and is floating without direction – just calling in at whatever seems interesting but that is ultimately only a passing fancy. There’s no depth, no desire for deeper discovery. Just a fleeting connection to the self that’s mirrored by a dalliance with someone else.
It is for this reason that I have a problem identifying with the polyamory movement. I think I’d prefer to go off the beaten track and find my own path on this one. Not there yet! But I do feel I’ve left some of my outmoded obligations behind.
— Sarah
Eric….interesting that you have an 8th House moon…I do as well…this may explain why your writing is so resonate with me. Have you checked out ” The Hades Moon ” by Judy Hall ?…….it delves into the complexity of a Pluto-influenced Moon….also the issues of absorbing ” other people`s emotions ” and having difficulty finding your authentic self as a side-effect.
I am curious about another aspect to Venus in Taurus. I have Venus in Taurus opposite the moon in Scorpio. That has always seemed a bit difficult. Venus is in the 11th house and scorpio in the fifth. Both are somewhat possessive and fixed signs. I have struggled in relationships and now am single for the last 14 years. Is there any hope for me?
Ahhh, yes, the Moon-Venus square.
The one that makes me feel, even when I am making great headway and strides in my creative work that its all for naught. That it will die a sad and lonely death like a flower in the desert.
The square is a funny thing for me, particularly for me, born a fixed sign and the square between the fixed signs. Makes me feel like I’m living in a “wake up its 4:00am and you need to obsess about your life” kind of feeling–that happens all day.
Good to have an art project to focus on during this period. Better to feel the struggle of forming a muddy piece of stone into a sculpture.