Today’s Oracle takes us to the Libra weekly for Oct. 22, 1999
How you deal with anger at your parents in the coming weeks is an issue to watch. You may be one of the lucky few people who has no anger at your parents, in which case it might show up within some other kind of relationship, even one that seems totally fine on the outside. Check for subcurrents. Ask yourself how you really feel, and whether you have the space and time you need to be yourself without holding back. Assess your whole relationship to the past and the commitments you have made, and inquire carefully which of them you want to keep, which you want to amend, and which you want to dissolve entirely.
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Thank YOU Lizzy, always for your softness and kindness, and your sharing of yourself.
Thank you Daniel, as always, for sharing your story – for your openess and compassion.
Very touched by all the comments here. I’m so thrilled about your breakthrough, P Sophia! It took me many many years to release the anger towards my parents, and the way I was my mother’s emotional prop from the tender age of 10. But I managed to release that anger in the end – though as you say, beleclaire, this stuff has layers – and maybe it’ll never clear completely, but I feel that that’s ok, Now when I go back to stay with my folks and take care of them, it’s still exhausting and emotionally trying, but I no longer feel like a victim, which changes everything, and I also feel endless love and compassion towards them, and gratitude for all they gave me, in spite of the difficulties. And as I have softened towards them – they respond with such love and kindness, which helps me to be patient with their neediness and the ups and downs.
Nilou, thank you for that beautiful imagery, and P. Sophia I was very touched by your insights.
I just wanted to share something else if I may. One of the main things I’ve been working on this past year is consciously changing my “story”. Not to tell the same story over and over, somehow being attached to it along with all my resentments that then start surfacing. Yes, that traumatic incident had to do with my mother and how she used her power. But if I look at just today at a conversation with some friends about how so many men don’t seem to have their shit together and woman generally do, and what that is about. Why do men generally not have the same degree of self awareness or emotional maturity? I have seen more examples of guys not wanting to speak up about what is important to them, letting their partners take over because of a lack of direction, how resentment builds and no one is talking about it, and the guy suddenly turns into a 10 year old in a 40 year old body either on purpose or out of ignorance. I’m generalizing yes, and women have their work to do too. And so I look at my own life. I’ve been on my own for a while and it’s probably a very good thing. I don’t know if I have my shit together either. My point here is, my mom was a good teacher. She is an example of efficiency and resourcefulness. Like any mom, she was and can still be smothering and intense. But I know that I am stronger from her. Yes, my life was waiting for me to grab it by the balls, that’s the whole point. From a different angle, she gave me the very strength and maturity to do it with the visceral and complete resolve that I envisioned for myself every time I desired to be a strong person. And still I say, “dammit, why were you so hard on me? It wasn’t necessary.” And then I look at my life today and feel nothing but appreciation for every experience.
My mom sent me this today which in 1 min summarizes so much:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WYYJDsj-rzI
Thank you for reading. And, I love you mom…
Thank you Daniel Thank you Nilou
Feeling similar directed towards the theme of resolution this morning.
Was very much prompted as I contacted a long term relationship/lover from the past this morning. Our last together time, just over a year ago now ended due to agreeable ‘circumstances’, but no clear resolution was really ever felt. I feel I have now fully expressed my intentions and heart in the matter. Either way no matter the reply, I feel quite free to move fully forward in me.
Regarding family and expression on the other hand, resolution now means standing aside and giving space. I know this sounds very underwater, leaning towards dark or keeping deep, but it’s the opposite for me. For in this dynamic not being drawn in, meaning ‘under’ really, equals growth for me. Decisions and actions made by others, I have finally learned not to step in, wrongfully taking ownership of/for. Resolution on this front is the role I always ‘made’, (or better word) ‘took on’ in victim / rescuer role pattern that was passed down to me. Now the responsibility and final resolution finally shines in it’s rightful hands. This is a powerful, liberating feeling for me.
beleclaire, big hug for you, and lots of love, nilou
Daniel, where Venus, Saturn and North Node are right now, feels a lot more third movement than first!!! When I first listened to it today it was begging for resolution, but then i remembered ‘The chariot’. This movement brings up, churns up and clears out everything from the first two movements for me, it’s relentless, thorough, turns every underwater stone and shines a light underneath – very saturnine, very venusian – but at the end, a sense of relief that it’s over: a clear space, a new start, a new beginning, a deep breath…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YJeD8ckihN8
thank you for sharing that Beleclaire. I feel you very much.
On a slightly related topic, I was just reading that the last time Saturn was conjunct the North Node was Jun 04 2002 in Gemini. It took me about 2 seconds to remember that date. It was a traumatic period and it fired up a fever that lasted 2 weeks. It still sits in my memory, and although I’ve long since breathed the anger out of it, I look at it as being the marker point that involved a strong desire for uninhibited expression and embrace of my sexual passions.
Oh so accurate for this Libran…thank you Oracle. I was having some light relief from the practical issues I am swimming in at the moment by walking my dog. ‘Out of the blue’ as we strolled across the park I found myself saying to my mother – dead these past 25+ years – ‘I hate what you did to me’ and feeling tears pour down my face. Its a relationship that I had thought dissolved but here we are…yet another layer.