Near Death Experience
February 24, 2006
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Dear Eric,
I am one of your avid readers, and have gotten several
people hooked on your columns. I'm also a self-employed webmaster and tarot
card reader in
Last night I started noticing the numerology of the day I
went in. November 13, 2005... Hum... the 13th, a day of transformation... Then
I noticed the entire day adds up to 13 -- (1+1+1+3+2+0+0+5 = 13). I find it
interesting that I almost died in Scorpio, a month ruled by Pluto, god of the
Underworld, on a day vibrating heavy 13 influence. My fiancee said the Moon was
also close to full, and nearing an eclipse with Mars. Although I do not have
any of the astrology emails of what was going on near that date. I was
wondering if you would look at my chart and tell me what the heck was happening
with me, and why this took place. What am I supposed to be aware of here?
Thank you,
Shelley
1966, Libra/Sag Moon
Dear Shelley,
Congratulations on surviving.
In looking at any critical life event, it's often possible
to see all kinds of alignments, be they symbolic or literal. In looking at the
numerology and seeing the correspondences that you are, you're experiencing
this directly.
The more you look, the more you will find. For example, in
your natal chart, Mercury, ruler of Gemini (lungs) is exactly on your South
Node conjunct Kassandra (for which one of Martha's keywords is Wasted Breath).
This is in the sign Scorpio, a predominantly emotional energy. The lungs are a
place where we exchange life force with the cosmos and where we tend to hold
grief. There would seem to be a question of in control / out of control on an
emotional level in your life, and that you often wrestle with an out of control
feeling.
If you are provoked, and it would appear that there was some
antagonistic energy in your environment at the time, that can send you into
overload. To be sure, and as you know, this was a serious asthma attack. In
induced coma is indeed a near-death experience.
Based on the hospital admission data you provided, I can see
that the Moon-Mars occultation you are describing indeed preceded a Full Moon,
and this occurred also on a sensitive angle of your chart -- once again, close
to your lunar node, emphasizing provocation and the issue of control. So the
event was 'personalized' for you, and there was a lot of Mars (aggressive,
fiery, contentious or creative) energy involved. It sounds like this was some
part of what you experienced as a trigger.
I would be curious to know exactly what was going on in your
life for the 48 hours prior to this experience.
I have cast your astrology, and would like to present a
different version than we normally do in Astrology Secrets Revealed, which is
to use the progressed horoscope. As I explained in the previous question,
progressions advance time one day for every year of life that we live. Thus, if
you are 12 years old, the positions of the planets for the 12th day become your
chart for your 12th year; this carries on through life.
Here is your progressed horoscope for the day you were
hospitalized. Progressions provide a window into the synchronicity pattern in a
similar way that numerology does. There is nothing objective in the 'outside
world' that we could say is causing a situation, no more than we can say a
bunch of numbers are doing so. However, they exist and we can read them.
To read a progressed chart, there is nothing that special
that you do, except you do imagine the planets are in motion. With natal
charts, though it's a bad habit astrology teaches, we tend to regard the
planets as static. They never really are. They are moving (even when they are
stationing retrograde or direct) but with the progressed chart, we include the
movement as part of the concept. And thus we look for events that the movement
implies.
A lot is going on in this chart, visible predominantly
because so many planets have come into aspect with the angles -- the ascendant
and the descendent.
Once again, two factors come up: a definite sense of being
emotionally stifled (involving Chiron and Saturn in Pisces showing up in the
ascendant); as well as a rather violent energy involving an even more precise
alignment of Mars and also Uranus.
Yes, it looks like something came on fast and furious, and
pretty much knocked you down. Could we have foreseen this? Hmm, well, maybe --
if you had a chance to describe your life in the presence of someone who
understood your chart. In any event, all of the energetic properties do add up
to something that feels a lot like asthma, which any energy healer will tell
you is involved with grief and emotions.
How is your recovery coming? I know from my own bouts of
asthma years ago that it can take a while to catch your breath. Please do take
care of yourself.
PS, I asked what happened in the 48 hours prior and this is
the response that Shelley sent back:
"Well I can tell you approx. 3 days before this
happened, I had asked the Universe to send me a doctor for my asthma... one I
could trade services with, because I have no insurance.
"I had also come to the realization that I couldn't
keep doing web work, as it was not inline with my spirit... it was zapping the
life out of me, sitting in this chair 10-12 hours per day, helping to build
businesses that were not contributing to the higher good.
"So I had also just contacted by email, someone I was
considering turning my work over too... and was declaring it was my intention
to pursue the spiritual counseling I do with the tarot, etc. -- the things I
love that make a real difference in other people's lives. It was all about
getting over the FEAR (one more time) of survival, and just having faith that as
long as I followed my heart, everything would be ok... so it was a major
transition for me... the whole experience felt like a confirmation that it was
time for a new life."
PPS, I sent your question to Christine DeLorey, a
numerologist we know and love. Here is her interpretation, which she has
written without having seen my response to you:
Dear Shelley:
In 2005, you were in the 7 personal year, the energy of
which tends to slow you down (physically) to the very degree that will enable
you to comprehend your life, and life itself, more clearly. 7 is the number of
the mind, the spirit, the intellect, learning. It is masculine energy, which is
seeking the perfection of true balance - which can only be achieved through the
acceptance of feminine energy.
On the journey of a 7 year, there is often an unforeseen dip
in the road which causes us to trip and fall. For some, this can mean getting
tripped up by one's own actions which leads to a fall from grace into some kind
of scandal. Others literally lose focus, fall down, and injure their physical
bodies in some way. When the lungs fall, you can be sure that a massive buildup
of grief is behind it.
Some people believe that grief is simply the pain of not
having a person who is gone, but it is much more than that. In fact, such
simplistic explanations leave millions of people holding grief that they don't
know they have. Grief is the heaviest of all the emotions. It is the most
heightened sense of sadness we can feel, and it occurs for many reasons other than
the death of a loved one.
Being an avid reader of Eric's, you are obviously aware of
what is happening in our world and, frankly, how could you not be feeling grief
at this precarious point in humanity's journey. There's nothing wrong with
that. On the contrary, it shows that you are alive, aware, and still able to
feel something.
However, grief is also a giant trigger for all the other
emotions; but, if we always try to look on the 'bright side' and deny how we
really feel inside, we eventually become overwhelmed to the point that we
cannot breathe (asthma). We can also become 'choked' by guilt, which tells us
that it is wrong or weak to let our true feelings express themselves. And yet
it is fear (the fear of feeling something that could be perceived as
'unloving') which provides the fuel for guilt.
As far as the number 13 is concerned, and while
transformation is part of its essence, the emphasis is on the number 4, which
is derived from adding 1 (the number of independence and originality) and 3
(the number of appearances and expression) together. This is an important
number in your life. 4 is your Destiny or Life Path number - derived from
adding all the numbers in your date of birth.
1+0+1+7+1+9+6+6 = 31. 3+1= 4.
It does not tell you what your destiny 'is' but, rather,
explains the energy, which will enable you most easily to achieve the destiny
of YOUR choice. Numerology is about Free Will, not pre-destination. Here is a
bit on the number 4.
1966 also adds up to 4 (1+9+6+6 = 22. 2 + 2 = 4), which can
tell us a lot about the energy into which you were born and, consequently, what
motivates you in this lifetime. On your day of birth, the 4 energy was
intensified - for the purpose of helping you to notice how the chaos around you
seems less frustrating when you accept the facts for what they are and deal
with them in your own way and at your own pace. Recognize how certain things
that have bothered you for a long time, simply don't matter any more. By
expressing your feelings openly and honestly (instead of burying or hiding them
within), you will become acutely aware of what really matters so that you can
untangle yourself from what does not. This disentanglement may be the work of a
lifetime - and it is a deeply emotional process which can sometimes leave you
breathless.
One of the principles of the number 4 is that of priority.
What happened to you in 2005 is urging you to make a change of priority, which,
in turn, will produce a life-enhancing change of direction.
Your year of birth is important for other reasons too,
especially the fact that it adds up to the 'master' number 22. The number 2 is
becoming more and more significant as humanity travels further into the new
millennial cycle which is based on the feminine number 2 - the number of
emotion, Free Will, intuition, connection, fairness and balance.
Much of what is happening in the world today can be linked
to the transition between the masculine 1000s and the feminine 2000s (excerpt
linked below).
With so much 4 energy in your personal numerology urging you
to keep everything unemotional and 'practical', it took your not being able to
breathe to loosen the ties to that old programming.
This is not a matter of 'blaming' the victim but, rather, of
congratulating you on having evolved past the old programming, even if it was a
painful and frightening experience. If you can feel, you know you are alive,
and if you can understand that what happened to you was a form of healing from
disease rather than disease itself, you will also realize that it has
strengthened (not weakened) you.
Understanding what happened to you is important. Now, in
2006, you are in the 8 personal year which not only emphasizes correct
information but, just as importantly, correct understanding of that information.
This ties in to your day of birth - the 17th (1+7= 8) which has been strongly
influencing your life since you were 24 years old. In 2007 this cycle of 8
energy comes to an end. In fact, an entire 27-year era of your life will come
to an end in 2007 (your 9 personal year).
What happened to you, Shelley, and what is happening now, is
preparing you to get stronger - not by cutting off from your feelings, but by
being able to feel them fully - WANTING to feel them fully - wanting nothing
but total honesty with yourself. THAT is true intelligence.
Denial of reality has caused most of today's problems, both
personal and global. Positive change cannot occur without acceptance of
reality. Being able to feel how reality makes us feel is both the first and the
last steps of acceptance. This is when we go 'full circle'. It is when the ever
repeating cycles of numerology transform into spirals and lift us to the next
stage of our evolving journey.
As a numerologist, I can plainly see the significance of
what happened to you as part of your evolution into spiritual wholeness
(masculine/feminine balance), but in order to describe it as I would like to, I
have yet to discover the 'language' with which to do so. There is obviously so
much more to you and your numbers than I could possibly describe in the course
of this e-mail. However, for now, I hope that it provides a helpful
numerological sketch.
With love,
Christine You can read more about this on my website where
there is a detailed excerpt from my book LIFE CYCLES - Your Emotional Journey
To Freedom And Happiness.
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