Dear Friend and Reader:
A wave of energy through Scorpio is likely to bring secrets to light. You will discover them yourself first, then the next step will be to tell others. Make sure you confide in someone who you know cares about you. The kinds of personal revelations that are possible will come from a deep sense of vulnerability. Feeling positive about yourself will require a careful balancing act, or the discovery of how pleasurable it is to surrender to yourself and your deeper truth.
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Musicians brave a severe dust storm at Burning Man ritual, Sept. 2009. Photo by Eric Francis. |
A setup involving the Sun, Mercury and a small, meaningful planet called Nessus suggest we need to be careful not to inflict our parents' judgments onto ourselves. There's also a reminder not to make small matters into big ones; that is, to focus on what is truly meaningful rather than what is trivial or gossipy.
It's also a reminder that our words, once spoken, leave our lips and we can no longer control them. Therefore, be gentle in your speech, no matter now right you may feel. Understate your case. People will trust you more if you do. Mercury square Nessus also says, own your stuff; take responsibility for your pain; don't put it on others. Once you do that, you may find that the people close to you are eminently willing to be supportive in ways you hadn't imagined possible.
Yours & truly,
Weekly Horoscope for Friday, November 6, 2009, #791 -
BY ERIC FRANCIS
(March 20-April 19)
Pain is contagious. So is pleasure; so is awareness; so is love, though pain seems to be the more durable commodity. That is the problem. Your role now is to be the steward of pleasure and communication. The truth about erotic reality nowadays is that someone has to hold that role in nearly any situation. Someone must also consciously hold the space of it being okay to talk about sexual health. Be aware of the role that the past may be playing in any conversation, and guide things gently into the present (where we can actually make decisions). Move the energy from the emotional level to the verbal. This will guide the flow of the conversation from the experience of an overwhelmed child to that of adults who are alert and responsible enough to exchange love and pleasure. It's more fun that way.
(April 19- May 20)
Someone you care about has something on his or her mind. It likely mirrors unresolved subject matter that you possess; many people in relationships have similar histories, though they don't always know it. I suggest you listen carefully and do your best to find the common ground you share. I can describe the issue: it involves lacking the sense of approval by community or family for one's 'too much' (that is, high energy) kind of nature. You could say it's the fear of being scary, of being perceived as 'too intense' or 'too deep'. Yet deep in those subtle or resounding fears is something you're both trying to work out. It involves psychological social conditioning to be less than, or the message that we are inherently wrong; this in turn creates a disturbance, and that is up for working out now.
(May 20- June 21)
You're being called to bring your awareness to a deeper level than you're usually comfortable doing. You know your limits; you know what makes you want to run. (I initially typed 'fun' and there's a connection: what you think is the most fun is often what makes you want to run.) Have you paused to notice why it is that you panic? I have a clue. There's an empty spot you feel inside, and going deep reminds you that it's there. What exactly is this about, and why do you struggle with it? You'll need to go further into your own depths to figure that out. Energetically, you like to breathe air. It's not in your nature to breathe water, and that's what this may seem like. Be mindful of that moment right before you fear you're about to drown in your own emotions.
(June 21- July 22)
We've reached the point, at least in American society, where sex must become synonymous with sexual healing. Food must become synonymous with emotional healing and the work we do needs to be considered integral to creative healing. All three are related; they all emerge from the ways in which we have been pushed into giving up our passions and in truth, giving up on ourselves. The sense of injury that you may be encountering relates to a collective wound. You feel it as personal; in truth, it describes everyone around you. The other open secret is that we constantly fall prey to the same collective pain that we think of as personal, and as a result we're scared to talk about what's bothering us, much less actually address it. Let's deal with that shame.
(July 22- Aug. 23)
Many times, you have reflected to yourself on the swamp of madness that you've crawled out of, to take up life on the dry land of sanity. Your past and that of your family hold many secrets. Not all of them are pretty, and if you ask me, those are the most significant ones. They're the facts that have been padded and cloaked in denial, in mythology and in contradiction, while secretly running our lives. They are the hurts of the past that those close to us have refused to acknowledge. You don't need to make that mistake, and therefore have the power to put history to work for you rather than have it work against you. History is an interpretation. The facade of that interpretation is cracking, and borrowing from Moses, the truth will indeed be what sets you free.
(Aug. 23- Sep. 22)
Your rationality is like a small boat on an ocean where the waves are threatening to turn you to fish food. But what exactly are you being tossed around in? Your most useful psychological asset is so deeply intuitive, your reasoning process is like a decoration next to it. The problem is that too often, you don't trust yourself. You typically need to pile on the rationales before you'll let yourself have faith in an idea or a perception. Is that really necessary? Remember, nobody is looking over your shoulder. It's true, some daunting authority figures have tried to have an unfair influence over you in the past, but you've been saying over and over that you're through doing what they told you to do. At the moment, reason and intuition point to two different outcomes. Which will you accept as valid?
(Sep. 22 - Oct. 23)
You may feel like your life is aimlessly drifting toward somewhere you don't recognize. Look another way and you're heading directly toward a specific goal or perhaps an inevitability. Yet this particular direction you're approaching is the kind of inevitability known as a choice. Said another way, a choice is an option, and the one you're about to encounter offers you a mighty specific possibility. It's also a potential so subtle you could miss it. More than anything, this is a choice you're being offered to make about yourself. Deeply personal in nature, it's likely to percolate to your awareness in a moment when you feel you have lost all sense of who you are; a sly instant when you may recognize that all your past perceptions about yourself no longer influence who you are.
(Oct. 23- Nov. 22)
Saturn entering Libra represents an enormous sea change for you. Certain elements of your nature make you one of the most inherently introspective signs of the 12. Yet Saturn, now in your 12th solar house, is drawing you toward a dimension of inner seclusion that is different than anything you've experienced lately. And that is putting pressure on you to change your mind about certain long-held beliefs; to alter your environment; and to come to terms with everything about you that nobody else knows. However, you may recognize that your inner secret world cannot stay that way for long. The overriding theme of your current transits is that in order to regain your sanity, you need to be more transparent. In the end, you will discover that it was not what you were concealing that was causing your struggle, but the mere fact that you concealed it.
(Nov. 22 - Dec. 22)
Earlier in the year, the theme was how wide open your horizons were. Now, the theme seems to be narrowing down the possibilities, perhaps so restrictive that you seem to have lost all sense of your potential. This will not last long. In a short time, you will figure out that your emotional wellbeing is the factor that most significantly influences your wider sense of perspective. There's something here, as well, about your state of mind. You have been struggling for a long time with the assumption that you had an injury inflicted on you as a child. What I suggest is that you focus on what this injury has taught you, and what opportunities you've been given that would have been impossible without that struggle. Now, as an adult, you have the ability to choose to draw on strength that is yours alone.
(Dec. 22- Jan. 20)
You perceive yourself as being easy to see through. In fact, you are difficult to read. Even your most ordinary behaviors can have an aura of mystery about them. Whether you care about how this influences people, at least it's information you might want to work with. But then, you're often a mystery to yourself, and I don't need to tell you how frustrating this can be. It's fair to say that your process of understanding yourself is just beginning. Pluto in your sign is here to open up your psyche in a way that will reveal yourself to you. The challenge of this kind of experience is reconciling the aspects of yourself that seem to contradict one another. I would propose that this is the actual work of growth: of building authentic integrity.
(Jan. 20- Feb. 19)
Neptune and Chiron have resumed direct motion in your sign. A few weeks ago, Jupiter resumed direct motion. If you recall, there was a triple conjunction of these planets earlier in the year. Now it's about to repeat -- only as three separate events. Let's focus on the next one up: Jupiter conjunct Chiron. This relatively rare conjunction will enable you to focus your power of perception like you never have before. It's truly a gem of astrology, which will grant you the gift of seeing what you have in common with the world; and to witness the validity of your own idealism. Yet there is something your psyche is trying to master, as a prerequisite, which is the ability to allow, without judgment. This allowing we could call truly objective knowledge. Once you get there, there's another step to take. And what you know now is radically different than anything you've known in the past. What you are called upon to do will likewise be different.
(Feb. 19- March 20)
It's as if you're living two lives. They have little in common with one another. One exists in the world of your imagination. One exists in a more tangible form. Yet for a Pisces, the imagination is tangible and the external world can have all the properties of a dream. Indeed, in your consciousness, dreams often have more credulity than what most call 'reality'. Now, this distinction is not as simple as a parallel between dreams and reality; it's two parallel dimensions, side by side. Occasionally you get an opportunity to bring facets of one into the other. That's what is happening now, and what will be happening over the next few weeks. Focus on and develop what seems to be in your private world, to the point where it takes on vivid reality. Then, begin to transpose it in words, or pictures, or any form that may be revealed to more than one other person.
