{"id":11191,"date":"2009-02-15T06:01:47","date_gmt":"2009-02-15T11:01:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/?p=11191"},"modified":"2009-02-13T13:44:23","modified_gmt":"2009-02-13T18:44:23","slug":"from-foot-massagers-to-the-family-monitor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/sexuality\/from-foot-massagers-to-the-family-monitor\/","title":{"rendered":"From Foot Massagers to the Family Monitor"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve looked for sexual stimulation from outside sources since I had my first orgasm at 12, when my best friend ventured down to my vagina and didn’t come up for two hours. I’ve been chasing that orgasm ever since; first, from a foot massager I got as a present for Chanukah and, soon after that, I was on the family computer printing off erotic writing surreptitiously. I would scurry up to my bedroom with five pages at a time, nervous, flushed and excited to read the new stories, hoping I caught a good one with the limited time I had to scan it on the screen.<\/p>\n

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Christine from the Book of Blue. Photo by Eric Francis.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

There was one story in particular that I kept crumbled between the wall and the frame of my metal trundle bed. It was about a girl who went out in the middle of the night to buy cigarettes from the 7-Eleven across the street. It was pouring rain, and all she had on was a long white tank top, which soon became sheer, leaving her the sole participant in the parking lot’s wet t-shirt contest. Out of the shadows, five men appeared and took their turns with her, touching her and jerking off and fucking her. I loved this story, and would remember every so often that it was there, pull it out and read those last few sentences: the culmination of the gang bang, over and over again until I climaxed.<\/p>\n

This all occurred before I had my own computer and discovered video, before I really knew what feminism was and how much it would complicate and enrich my life in the future, before I knew I was gay. I was just a happy, porn reading, vibrator-using, masturbating adolescent. Then feminist politics came along and started teasing me, turning my seemingly innocent masturbation tools around. At first it was just a slight jolt, like the spinning teacups at the county fair. But feminism has a way of reconfiguring things, questioning the power inherent in every aspect of our lives in a wonderfully challenging and frustrating way; and eventually, I was on a ride that more closely resembled the Batman rollercoaster.<\/p>\n

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I’ve looked for sexual stimulation from outside sources since I had my first orgasm at 12, when my best friend ventured down to my vagina and didn’t come up for two hours. I’ve been chasing that orgasm ever since; first, from a foot massager I got as a present for Chanukah and, soon after that, … Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":""},"categories":[526,16],"tags":[36,52,1046,668,1042,117,170,1776],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11191"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11191"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11191\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11191"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11191"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11191"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}