{"id":53590,"date":"2012-02-21T00:52:10","date_gmt":"2012-02-21T05:52:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/?page_id=53590"},"modified":"2012-02-21T18:33:44","modified_gmt":"2012-02-21T23:33:44","slug":"anais-nin-selected-quotations","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/anais-nin-selected-quotations\/","title":{"rendered":"Anais Nin: selected quotations"},"content":{"rendered":"

Compiled by Monica Martin<\/em><\/p>\n

Her Pisces stellium, especially Sun, Venus, Eris:<\/p>\n

\u201cTo be myself is this, to be dual. And you can’t be dual without tragedy. I live on a hundred planes at once. Created a subtle, strange world with Henry, then with Huck [Otto Rank]. Enriching both, capable of both loves and of creating and nourishing both. Desiring unity but incapable of it. Playing a million roles.\u201d (Fire<\/em>)<\/p>\n

\u201cBefore I went to Allendy I knew that the collision with reality had again submerged me into dreams. My eyes waver and I cannot see very well. My eyes are blurred, as if I were drunk. I talk in the car as if I were galloping on a horse, and the world totters.<\/p>\n

\u201cIn this mood I go to Allendy, and his kisses do not awaken me altogether. I tell him about my preoccupation with reality, how I feel that I miss it always. Either dreams or sensuality. No intermediate life. Dreams or sensuality. As in my writing. The overtones only, or the undertones.\u201d
\n(Incest<\/em>)<\/p>\n

\u201cSuch an immense pity I have for Artaud because he is always suffering. I realize how extremely rare are the moments of physical wellbeing I have known, and equally rare the moments of absolute joy, and I want to create those moments for others. I know Artaud’s nerves and sensitivity are assuaged here — I remember what Henry was when I met him, and now he is an exultant, joyous, creative being. It is the darkness, the bitterness in Artaud I want to heal. Physically, I wouldn’t touch him. But the flame in him, and the pain, these I love.\u201d
\n(Incest<\/em>)<\/p>\n

\u201cIt is while we are away from each other that we embroider upon the love by creating around it. [Moon conjunct Uranus]<\/span> With continuous presence, the proportions are lost, Huck becomes an ordinary husband who is concerned only with the facts of my life, and the jealousy. [Juno in Sag in the third house square Sun conjunct Jupiter]<\/span>
\n(Fire<\/em>)<\/p>\n

\u201cEvery time something is taken away from me, every time I lose someone or something, every time I must separate from something or someone, my reaction is creative. [Pallas conjunct Neptune, Moon conjunct Uranus]<\/span> Huck observed that when I had lost my Father, I became my Father; when Henry fails me, I become the writer; when Rank fails me, I become an analyst. [Mars square Chiron sextile Venus conjunct Eris; Uranus opposed Pluto?]<\/span> Everything must be replaced and re-created. Everything must come out of me and be me [Sun in the 5th house]<\/span>, and in me. I create my self-sufficiency, self reliance, self-fecundation. [Mars in the first house]<\/span> But because I am a woman I don’t want to be without needs. [Moon square Venus]<\/span> And I continue to have great needs. Nothing replaces life or love. I needed a father; I needed Henry; I needed Hugh’s protection, his loyalty, his faith; I needed Rank’s understanding; I needed Henry’s writing; I needed my Father’s equilibrium; I needed love. Terrific, immense, devouring, shattering needs. Life forces me to prevent and remedy needs– to be a cosmos all by myself: man, woman, father, mother, mistress, child. All the roles!\u201d
\n(Fire<\/em>)<\/p>\n

Pallas conjunct Neptune: Expressed as her constant trickery. To have several lovers and, she says, not to hurt anyone, she develops a craft, a strategy by deceit.<\/p>\n

\u201cLies: To explain to Henry why I could not spend this week with him. Inventions. Color. Drama. To explain to Allendy why I still go out one evening a week. Lies to Fred to attenuate effect of Henry’s furious cruelties because Fred steals a kiss now and then. ‘I love you like a brother’, which is not true. Fred’s sensitivity is like a barometer, but it has the depth of a feather.<\/p>\n

\u201cLies to conceal from the world my struggles against bad health. As I am often too tired to last through a day, I invent activities while I run home to take a sunbath. Lies about the source of income I give Henry out of extreme sacrifices, because a job is more attractive than the pinching I have to do. And I couldn’t keep a job because I haven’t the strength. Lies to Hugo to preserve his security. Lies to Emilia. Lies to Joaquin to calm his jealousy. The lies of night nurses, doctors, and Utopians.<\/p>\n

\u201cThe only person I do not lie to is my journal. Yet out of affection even for my journal I sometimes lie by omissions. There are still so many omissions!\u201d
\n(Incest<\/em>)<\/p>\n

From The Washington Post<\/em><\/a> in an article about her second husband, on how she managed to have two husbands at once:
\n\u201cBoth men apparently chose to believe her lies, which became so numerous that she wrote them down on index cards and locked them in a box so that she could keep her stories straight. She referred to the web of lies as her ‘trapeze’.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Compiled by Monica Martin Her Pisces stellium, especially Sun, Venus, Eris: \u201cTo be myself is this, to be dual. And you can’t be dual without tragedy. I live on a hundred planes at once. Created a subtle, strange world with Henry, then with Huck [Otto Rank]. Enriching both, capable of both loves and of creating … Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":191,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"generate_page_header":""},"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/53590"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/191"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=53590"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/53590\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/planetwaves.net\/news\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=53590"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}