You're figuring out that you like yourself, which is a huge step in the right direction. You now need to connect that improved opinion of your existence with permission to be motivated in the direction you want to go. At this point, you run the risk of giving up, but you could just as easily choose to face the repeated challenges of existence in a truly positive way. The past month or so has been an extended experiment in determining what right you have to take action, and on what rationale. You may, at the moment, be observing that you were motivated for the 'wrong' reasons; you may decide that you have been too aggressive with yourself and with others; that you are critical to the point of negating your right to exist. I know you are committed to maintaining a realistic, balanced view of yourself, but remember, you exist and you exist for a reason. If you remember that, much else will be perfectly obvious.