In tonight’s edition of the Blue Studio Sessions, hosted by Planet Waves FM, my guest is Susan. She tells us about her sexual history going back to the age of seven, when she revealed her knowledge about something that I think we all need to figure out sooner or later. I think that Susan is peering into the soul of sexuality, and has something unusual to offer us. This file is about 1 hour and 40 minutes. I chose not to edit it so as not to interrupt the natural flow. Please add comments with any responses or questions, which Susan will be reading as well.
I enjoyed listening to what you had to say, Susan–thank you! I especially appreciated your observations about relationships and the lack of clear agreements and negotiations that too-often accompany them. I also loved your salient, elegant answer to Eric’s question about how you avoid taking on the disapproval (some) people project on to you: “I know who I actually am.”
On a personal note, I, too, discovered masturbation at about the same age–and in the same way–that you did. (It sure made bath time a lot more fun!) It was good to hear about your experience with it, and the response that you had to your mother’s chastisement: “I don’t think god cares.” Many adults don’t think that independently and critically; it’s amazing that you were able to do it at seven years old!
This was a great message. I really got stuck on the whole yes/no theme. I mean it really sounds like something that should be easy, that should be normal, I suppose, but in truth it isn’t. I can’t tell you how many times I have encountered situations to where I have said yes and wished later that I had said no. Maybe I should have walked away from that relationship but didn’t. I mean this isn’t just about sex, masturbation, but really about life itself. I believe that it is all interwoven. Why? Because, what I have come to realize, is that how I choose to be in a relationship really reflects on how I choose to take care of my own life, as well as the life of the earth.
I guess this kind of goes with my sun in Cancer and reflecting outward, but with a Leo ascendant, I would probably appear to be quite strong, but really my Sun is still in Cancer.
Anyways, I just want to say thanks for the opportunity to open a discussion. I truly love your openness. I don’t always agree with everything and nor should I, but I do appreciate your ability to open a dialogue and your ability to bring awareness to your subscribers.
Thanks
Glad I set aside the time to listen to this interview tonight. I enjoyed it. It was good to hear your experience, Susan, of your development as a sexual being. I learned to masturbate in much the same way you did around age 14. The delay for me was probably due to a very difficult childhood, although, I was probably lucky that I learned how as young as I did, given what I had been through.
I am curious to know how you are now, how you are experiencing yourself now as a sexual being, and if you are happy. I assume you are happy. It’s just that most of the talk seemed to be about the past, not what is happening now in your life. You’ve taken a strong road and kept your integrity and independence and been unafraid to look at things deeply. I would guess there have been rewards for choosing that path. I hope you don’t mind my asking.