Focusing again on the Aries Moon, at this moment it’s about to make a conjunction to Eris, the funnel of chaos within the psyche. Eris is the point where no matter how many questions we might answer for ourselves, or how perfect one’s rГ©sumГ©, we come back to the same seemingly inexhaustible source of fear or self-doubt. It is a focal point of the unknown and this particular unknown is about who we are: the question that everyone has in their hand, or their pocket or their purse; some have it in mind.
It does not necessarily seem that way because we have been told who we are, and have told ourselves so many times, that this one particular matter seems clad in steel. Yet looked at closely, this experience of who one is appears to change from moment to moment, which may be a matter of perspective, but then it starts to feel like not being able to get off off a carnival ride.
How we typically relate to this constantly shifting perspective is to cling, and that becomes the ‘sense of self’. It makes enough sense; everything is moving, so hold on. However I think that in allowing ourselves to get drawn through this funnel we might find ourselves in a place that is more akin to core self, and feel the relief of not grasping onto ourselves or our awareness as if it [we] were a fixed entity.
Today the Moon, simultaneously the collective identity and the most private sense of both personal need and intuitive understanding of existence, makes a conjunction to Eris (discovered and named between 2003 and 2006). Eris is the thing that is bigger, further out and brighter than Pluto, and which caused the reorganization of the solar system and forced the definition of ‘planet’: in astrology it’s the fertile point of identity chaos. One translation is, “if we don’t feel the answer, we feel the question, and the question is rich.” These points, in turn, remain precisely aligned with Mars square Saturn: the sudden, potentially destabilizing snap into place within the psychic structure; and to some, a snapping loose. There is the world, and how we think about it. There is our own existence, and how our thoughts generate our perception of it.
Do we snap into position, or break free? In Virgo (Saturn) there is a vast database of concepts that is in part fed by our DNA, in part by memory and (this is vital about Virgo) in part by synthesis. Saturn often represents the thing we are the most afraid of. In Gemini (Mars) there is a dilemma. There is a sense of the divided self. It’s always there, but now Mars is giving it a voice. The two rarely ever talk to one another. They are in an unforgettable conversation now.